6 Years...

Hi, my name is Emily.
I'm 17 years old.
I'm straight, I have an amazing boyfriend; we are so happy together, we are perfect for each other.
He's the only reason I'm still alive.

I'm currently being emotionally, mentally, and verbally abused by my mother. I was being physically, verbally, (mainly) abused by my father.
My parents have been divorced for a bit over 2 years (2010), I was so happy when they divorced. I have been faking my emotions and happiness since like 2004... My mother is extremely abusive and controlling. She had her friend write a letter which was supposed to be from my boyfriend's mother (which it really wasn't), saying how I'm to have no further contact with him, she has had cops lie to me, and to my boyfriend's family.

That's all I can think of about that portion at the moment.

I have been self harm/scratching/bruising (first to mostly) myself for the past 7 years on the self harm, I have been scratching myself quite/really badly my whole life.

I've been out-patient diagnosed with this kinda broad spectrum:

Schizophrenia, RSD/CRPS, fibromyalgia, major depressive disorder, social anxiety, (slight) agoraphobia, (some) acute stress reaction, panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, EDNOS, psychogenic pain, hypersomnia, and paranoia, narcolepsy, delayed sleep phase disorder, and adjustment disorder.

I have been to a therapist before, for a few months, but he kept pushing me to be closer to my [i]abusive[/i] mother, and blew me off about the abuse, so needless to say, I stopped seeing him. He wasn't even helping me besides that.

My boyfriend is driving with our friend a round trip of about 6,000 miles to come and get me and take me back to his house. He lives in New Jersey, and I live in Oregon.
That was the plan, but now I'm going by bus to travel 3,000 miles after/around the time I turn 18, which is in the beginning of November. It'll save a tone of money and time for me to do that...

I have an Australian Shepherd, her name is Bella, she and I were third in the nation in ASCA (Australian Shepherd Club of America), until I stopped showing due to my anxiety, etc. I couldn't take the crowds, attention, etc. anymore.
reasonibreath reasonibreath
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 5, 2012

hi, feel free to message me anytime

Thank you, the same goes to you.