Depressed Bout Eating

I'm 1.71m and I weigh 66kg.... Everythime I eat I feel soooo good and right after I feel like the most disgusting being on earth..... I want it out!!!! All of it!!!!! It makes me feel like I'm disgusting and fat.... However when I catch myself I wana eat...... I wana and know how 2 loose weight on the propper way... Buuuuut I hate excersise.... Iv gone from eating healthy 2 binge eating and feeling so guilty afterwards..... If I could just loose 8 kg and then continue being healthy!!!!!!! I need some one 2 keep me positive......