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Confused.......

Don't where to start...Ahh....O.K. Was a problematic child, not treated well by the parents though I completely sure that they loved me so much but did not know how to handle me.....same teenage...always revolting ...going against what my parents suggested....not fitting well in studies...changing subjects again and again....at last did my Bachelors...again changed the profession....completed masters...came back to first profession....and still in it but feeling like a hell...the ones that I sometimes thought were my buddies proved to be selfish bastards ....tired to get rid of them but could not ...they know how to keep sticking no matter what....still working with them in same organization.....tried to work honestly and let every one else take advantage...and move ahead....now professionally o.k but I know I am lot better than what I am doing at this stupid place.....among stupid selfish, non-cooperative people.....

Love life.....sad story again....went close to 5-6 girls but did not find the "love".....got married in very unusual circumstances...now have three adorable kids....wife...hmm.....proved to be completely opposite to what I thought or dreamed off....I am extremely romantic....she is not near to it at all...I am extrovert...  she is introvert.....I love life...she has a extremely passive and negative approach towards life....I tried thousands of times to bring her back to life...but failed badly....she is objects on every thing...don't want anything, don't like to get ready, go with me to eat or shopping....don't listen to music at all...no hobbies..nothing...even don't like sex at all....not interested...

I started reading spirituality stuff...it attracted me ...go inward...there is nothing outward....don't get frustrated with your circumstances...these are all your life situations not you...now I don't know why I am attracted to this stuff...because I was and still am a spineless man who knowing that defeat is obvious get spiritual or indeed it is true.....Yea I know I am spineless man...trying not hurt any body...trying to fit with everything and everyone....good man ..haan...but going through arguments or fights sometimes....not because I got my spine back but because of anger accumulated within me......

I love sports....love to work...but no one to share life with in real sense.....no one to talk to.....don't know
obviousmysterious obviousmysterious 41-45 3 Responses Sep 17, 2011

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i hope you find something that makes you happy. Money is not real, neither is status. Don't worry about those. I don't know if you are. I was also a difficult child to deal with. I think I'm still difficult. Not on purpose, just socially inept. Being genuinely happy makes you more attractive to others. Apparently a lot of people can tell if you're happy by looking at you.

Looks like you have too much expectation from your life but failed many times. Try to join some wild sports or activity like swimming, bunging jumping, river rafting etc. to release some stress from your mind. May god bless you.

You have three kids, spend time with them. There must be a lot of fun! ^^