wow, quite an experience. Suicidal thoughts have haunted me as well, I fear if I don't find a telepathic wife to help me cope with my problems, and let me enjoy this gift, I will do the worst.
Ha.. It was a huge enlightenment I had on shrooms.. I was just laying in bed.. Ready to kill myself.. And it was like My brain had given me every reason not to die.. as much as I wanted to.. I felt like I had broadened my understanding of life and death, and was such a change... that I was a different person.. I felt more one with myself.. Stronger in spirit and mental abilities.. It almost felt like being born again.