Curiosity

I'd always considered myself to be purely heterosexual - my sole experience with another man was during a game of truth or dare back in high school, and since then the thought of trying anything else had almost never come up in my mind.

Still not entirely sure when this started changing. At some point in the two years since I graduated from college and started working, I started to become curious: What would it be like to pleasure a man? How would it feel to have a **** sliding in and out of my mouth? Would I enjoy the touch of another man's hard body? How well would I take a load of *** down my throat?

This is purely sexual and speculative. I have no desire to date a man, just to suck one off. I have no desire to have a relationship with a man, just a one-night stand. Hell, I don't even know if these desires will last past the first time I am with a man - but I'm dying to find out.

The thing that's holding me back? Since I am in such a speculative phase and haven't yet had the opportunity to try anything out, I don't want anyone I know personally to know anything about my thoughts, especially since I live in NYC and run into friends regularly at random out of the way places. Sure, maybe I'm being disingenuous but at this point I won't know anything myself until I've tried it.

From what I hear the scene in this city is ridiculous and crazy, and I don't want to just dive in. Yet. Just finding EP, reading some of the posts, and putting my own little blurb out here lets me feel like I'm getting my feet wet. We'll see where it goes from here.