I Am Bi
Where to start? Well, I am 19, live in Leicestershire, in the UK, and I identify as Bisexual. I am genuinely a decent looking guy, but all my life, I have been extremely uncomfortable with entering a standard relationship with a straight female in my own age group. In all honesty, it scares me. I am afraid of rejection, and I cannot handle the pressure and expectations that come with being the male. I don't know how to be this traditional masculine provider stereotype. It just isn't me.
I am not a hard worker.
I am not assertive.
I don't believe in marriage.
I don't want to have children.
I am quiet, studious, emotionally distant, possess obscure tastes, hold an extreme contempt for societies so called "norms", and also I enjoy smoking cannabis and experiencing various psychedelics, finding it very hard to relate with most people (hence the name).
I believe this stems from growing up without a mother figure. I do not know how to care for a girl, when one has never cared for me. This makes me feel as if I have certain needs to be fulfilled. an immense void of emotional disparity.
I am lost, and the harsh reality is, I need to be looked after.
I would feel comfortable with someone who is older, smarter, taller or more confident than myself. Or all of those. Someone who understands that I'm not very well developed emotionally and will take their time with me. I am a slightly feminine guy and I have considered looking for a slightly more masculine woman, or lesbian online, because sexually and even even in just cuddling and kissing, I would prefer them to be in control. I just don't trust these alternative dating sites, however.
Failing having my girlfriend basically be the man of the relationship, I would still like someone my own age who has similar tastes or beliefs (which will be rare) as long as the care giving is equal. I don't like the assertion that only men should cater to a woman's emotions, and never need emotional support from the other sex. I also don't like the imbalance of power that is just expected in most standard relationships. I would like true equality and for my partner to be open and honest about their feelings.
As I mentioned at the start, I consider myself bisexual. Failing have a girlfriend at all, I would still like to have a boyfriend. This is a completely different story, though. I have no problem whatsoever relating and bonding with males. In this case, I would not mind being the care giver, as I prefer feminine guys, anyway. Again, it can only work, if they at least have similar tastes and beliefs as myself.
If my different tastes of relationships has confused you, don't worry, it confuses me a lot. so to summarize, if you are any of the following, and are interested in a relationship, or just friendship, please let me know:
Caring Straight Female (25-35)
Somewhat Masculine Lesbian/Bi (18-35)
Feminine Gay/Bi Male or Crossdresser (16-21)
Transgender (16-35)
I am not a hard worker.
I am not assertive.
I don't believe in marriage.
I don't want to have children.
I am quiet, studious, emotionally distant, possess obscure tastes, hold an extreme contempt for societies so called "norms", and also I enjoy smoking cannabis and experiencing various psychedelics, finding it very hard to relate with most people (hence the name).
I believe this stems from growing up without a mother figure. I do not know how to care for a girl, when one has never cared for me. This makes me feel as if I have certain needs to be fulfilled. an immense void of emotional disparity.
I am lost, and the harsh reality is, I need to be looked after.
I would feel comfortable with someone who is older, smarter, taller or more confident than myself. Or all of those. Someone who understands that I'm not very well developed emotionally and will take their time with me. I am a slightly feminine guy and I have considered looking for a slightly more masculine woman, or lesbian online, because sexually and even even in just cuddling and kissing, I would prefer them to be in control. I just don't trust these alternative dating sites, however.
Failing having my girlfriend basically be the man of the relationship, I would still like someone my own age who has similar tastes or beliefs (which will be rare) as long as the care giving is equal. I don't like the assertion that only men should cater to a woman's emotions, and never need emotional support from the other sex. I also don't like the imbalance of power that is just expected in most standard relationships. I would like true equality and for my partner to be open and honest about their feelings.
As I mentioned at the start, I consider myself bisexual. Failing have a girlfriend at all, I would still like to have a boyfriend. This is a completely different story, though. I have no problem whatsoever relating and bonding with males. In this case, I would not mind being the care giver, as I prefer feminine guys, anyway. Again, it can only work, if they at least have similar tastes and beliefs as myself.
If my different tastes of relationships has confused you, don't worry, it confuses me a lot. so to summarize, if you are any of the following, and are interested in a relationship, or just friendship, please let me know:
Caring Straight Female (25-35)
Somewhat Masculine Lesbian/Bi (18-35)
Feminine Gay/Bi Male or Crossdresser (16-21)
Transgender (16-35)
By:
AlienOnEarth
Age:
18-21
