I haven't given up on Ashleigh yet. I still want to do so much with her. I havent had much experience with girls and she likes inexperienced girls. It seems like a good match. I just keep hoping that she'll break up with her gf for good.
Strangely tho, Ashleigh is now my best friend. I think it just sorta happened. Ever since I told her how I felt about her we started hanging out. I guess after hanging out with someone for a long time you get the label "best friend". I think its pretty cool. I've always wanted a best friend, and now I finally have one.
The weird thing is that we both are attracted to each other. And she has a gf so she cant do anything with me. And I dont want to hurt their relationship cuz friends dont do that. Everytime we hangout I think of how I want her to be mine. She is so pretty and probably has the most perfect boobs. I havent seen them yet, but i've seen plenty cleavage.
Its the most awkward thing to have a crush on your bff. but the reason we became best friends is cuz i told her I like her. Sometimes it hurts alot to know that I cant have her in the way i want. Usually you'd ask your best friend for advice when you like someone, but you cant when you like your best friend. Its such a confusing situation.