The Outcast

Ever since I was little I knew I was diffrent then other people some days I would wanna be manly and reckless and then I would be afraid of getting dirty whenever me and my friends would play pretend I would wanna be a girl character and I would act pretty I even let some of my guy friends feel me up and grind me when we were little pretending that I was girl but I still liked girls so I grew up assuming I was bisexual but it didn't feel right but I ended up telling people close to me I was I even got married and told her I was and I kept the feelings to myself well eventually I told her I feel like a boy and wanna do boy things but then somedays I feel like a girl and wanna do girl things she took it fairly well she was upset at first cause she thought she was losing me but I explaned she wasn't she was gaining someone new and she's been working with me to help me well finally I looked up my feelings and found a name to how I felt bigendered and that there were people like me and I felt like a weight lifted off me that I wasn't a freak that I could be accepted