An End to Destruction

So it has been a long while since I have even visited this site. But something made me log in tonight. I thought maybe I would update every one on recent events in my life.

For a while, things were not going good at all. I was always over drafted in the bank, due to uncrontrolable impulses. I just didnt care. It was almost as if I had given up. My lease was about to end, and I couldnt renew, and I didnt have a new place to go to. But at the very last minute, I found a new place. Took three months to get my money situation fixed. And for a while I was doing really bad. Was having psychotic episodes.

I punched a hole in the wall, and almost pushed my ex down some stairs. All without meaning to. Without even thinking. Needless to say, I was scared. Scared of myself, and what I might do. So I spoke with my therapist, and checked into a hospital the next day. Spent 5 days in the hospital, going to all the groups, and communicating with other patients. I think it did me some good. Got me stable on my meds, and got me into the habit of taking them every day. It really made me want to work on being a better person. Not only for myself, but for the people I love as well.

So far, things are starting to look a little better for me. And I know now that I have people I can count on for help in the future.

BeautifulNightmare BeautifulNightmare
22-25, F
1 Response Oct 11, 2008

I have faith in you beautifulnightmare!! I am excited to read that you recognized you needed help and got it!!<br />
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If you need some to talk to...I'm here to listen!! {{{HUGS}}}