It Is A Lot Of Work, But Worth It.

I live without medication, because that is truly the best option for me.  My mania state is usually a euphoric hypomania, and my depressive states last no more than a month.  I spend much more of my life moving from one to the other than actually being manic or depressed because I have rapid cycles.  Through therapy and a wonderful husband, I have learned how to tune into where my mood is and adjust my life and activities to fit my moods.  I use my mania to tackle projects, create, and clean.  I use my depression to catch up on my reading, movies, TV, and sleep.  When I am between the two I work to live a balanced life.  No matter what my mood or energy level is, I put my daughter, husband and job first.  Amazingly, this has worked for me very well.  No matter how I feel, I take care of the most important things.  Sometimes our house is spotless and beautiful, sometimes our house is cluttered and messy, but our dishes are always clean, we always have food, my daughter is always clothed, fed, loved, and attended to, and my job performance is consistent (a LOT of acting is involved there).   My husband pitches in like a trooper and takes care of things when I cannot.  In return, when I am manic, we work our schedules so he has more freedom, less responsibility.  It is a lot of work to balance my life, but it is worth it.  I am not dependant on any medications, I am able to sustain a few friendships, I have a good marriage, and my daughter knows I love her and care for her. 
knutmeg knutmeg
31-35, F
3 Responses Jul 23, 2010

Thank you, I am considering going med free but trying to be rational about it and make an informed decision. I've been medicated since 2003 and it had its place but I lose a lot mentally by being on meds and feel like I want the old me back. Your story inspires me that by being intentional I can live with this illness instead of trying to eliminate it.

Knutmeg...I love your story and I feel very happy for you. :) It's hard work, but it's properly worth it! Keep having a great life!!

How lucky you are! I am also bipolar. But I don't have ordinary manic/depressive states, once I turn manic, I become psychotic. During that period, I am a danger to myself and others. Actually, I am now a felon. In 1995, I had a manic episode which blossomed into psychotic. Driving down a main highway at 80 mph, I thought I was land an airplane. Ran a red light, smack into a college student. He was injured, I was injured. I avoided going to prison with a plea bargain. Restitution and a year's probation. Hospital and then jail. This was not the first time I had manic/psychotic events, but it changed my life. For one thing, I was finally dx'd bipolar. Up until that time, the doctors seemed stumped. One of the problems was the length of time, years, between episodes. I have since been on meds and even though I am now in relationship hell, have no exhibited signs of the old mania/psychosis. I wish you luck, but mine is a different story.