The Perfect Group For Me

Almost five years ago I found out that I am bipolar.  I am familiar with bipolar disorder because my mom is also bipolar.  All my life I’ve watched my mom struggle with bipolar, she went in and out of mental hospitals.  I can sit here and tell story after story about the things she’s been through.   But for the most part when she takes her meds she fine.  She’s a wonderful person and she’s been a great mom and I wouldn’t trade her for the world.

About five years ago, I finished college and got my first real job. I was put under enormous amounts stress and had a mental breakdown.  I went into a mental hospital for a week and came out a new person.  I broke up with the girl I was dating and didn’t want to marry.   I realized that I hated working in an office. 
After about two years of working in an Engineering office and hating it, I decided to just go back to what I was doing in college.  During summer while I was in college I would work as an industrial electrician.  Before I started back working as an electrician, I had to lose a few pounds.  Well I lost 30 lbs and got a contract job with a plant that had an expansion going on.  I started right at the beginning of summer. 

Working 10 hours a day in the heat would wear me out.  I would go home and sleep like a baby. I lost an additional 15 lbs.  The time I was there I made a lot of good friends.  I realized that some of the happiest people in the world, work their butts off every day.  I also realized some of the smartest people in the world never graduated high school. Construction workers have a lot of pride, and it’s a bit of a brotherhood.  I felt like I was a part of something.  Yea I had to hear how much they hate Engineers.  The project ended, and I didn’t want to travel.

Now I’m looking for a new job.  I’m kind of riding the wind, waiting on the next chapter of my life to be written.  It took me nearly five years but I’ve learned to deal with the fact that I’m bipolar, I’m single and I’m probably not going to be a big shot Engineer.  I can honestly say this is the happiest I’ve been in a long time.  I can only hope it last.
dburger dburger
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1 Response Aug 30, 2010

What a great encouragement for bipolars. I haven't been so lucky as you, but for several years, have been on the right meds and doing fine. I love your statement about hard working people being happy. I think it's true. Stay happy!