JealousyI had a kinder friend back at high school and she also developed mental health issues around the same time as me. she said she has Psychotic depression, it really annoyed me because i had been to the out patient clinic for over a year before she came and she was diagnosed straight away but i still hadn't been diagnosed so i always wondered if she was lying ( i know that's bad why would someone lie about having psychotic depression) my doctors kept telling me its too early to tell whats wrong Blah blah blah. now this friend is better she continued and finis he high school and is now at university and is doing well, while I'm still stuck in this hole of doom. I am now diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features and catatonia. It irritates me that shes well and doing great and I'm not, i had to leave high school when i was put into the psychiatry hospital. all my mates didn't want to know me after i was admitted. I think that her family handled her illness really well and that's why she got better with in 6 months, not that my mum didn't try but she didn't know who to deal with it and now she just reckons that there isn't anything wrong but its just who i am. I guess you could say I'm jealous of her as she got heaps of friends and is now better and I'm not.
Does anyone else feel like this sometimes?
CrackedNut 18-21, F 2 Responses 0 Nov 12, 2010