I Have Ruined My Marriage
I must change my name here. I am no longer husbandsangel. I am his grief, a thorn in his side, the source of his anger and rage. How long has he felt this way? I don't know know. I haven't a clue. Stupid worthless me. 25 years have all been a lie. His lies worst of all. He made me believe he loved me no matter what!! He knows I am bipolar. I try and try to get better. I try every med, I try every therapy. I have cried many,many tears alone so no body is affected. He thought for so long I would not pay attention or just ignore him, drown him out with the loud TV. I was so confused. He was so confused. I just couldn't hear. So now I have a hearing aid, but it cost a lot of money we can ill afford. More resentment. I can't win. Maybe I should just go away,one way or another. If I can't be husbandsangel I'd rather nothing at all. He can find someone, anyone would be better than me but no one could love him more than me. He said some very hurtful thing last night his voice raised , accusing , venomous , and angry. This is not the man I know but the man I made him become. So I''ll do everyone a favor and get out of the way.