Short & Sweet Advice From A 10 Year Veteran

Don't tell anyone who doesn't know. They don't get it, they never will.

Let it go, unless you're with one of us. I was obsessed at first, looking online and for support groups and whatnot. They all say the same thing and have the same damn checklist of symptoms, a cut-and-paste slop job if I ever saw one. We all want answers, miracle pills, some kind of hypnosis that gets this bug out of our heads, but there aren't any. Live with it but don't let it be who you are.

Fictionalize your story and share it, maybe even sell it. People pay to be entertained by our experiences, and I kind of see why. They do tend to merge our realities (as it were) with these so-called mind bending movies that give me a sense of deja vu.

Everyone seems to be bipolar these days, it's like the flavor of the month. Most of them are just moody and selfish. Let them drone on and on about how sad they are or whatever because they're "biploar." Just nod and smile.

Don't talk about the stuff you see and hear. They're not out to get you, but if you keep saying weird stuff to people in authority, they will just keep adding it to your crazy scorecard.

Finally, the one that took me the longest, you're not alone even when you are alone. So very few people understand psychotic tendencies and what happens to us, but some of us do.

Go forth and be merry.
bgkok7 bgkok7
31-35, M
2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

Lithium is a 1950s carryover, very harsh and way overused. It's basically a salt.<br />
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Depakote (valproic acid), makes you FAT and slow. Another basic salt.<br />
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Haldol/haliperdol-just kicks you in the head, can't take it for very long.<br />
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Risperdal-one of the better antipsychotics but not great<br />
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Zyprexa-as one psychiatrist told me, and I love this line, "it forgives a lot of sins."<br />
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Antidepressants like effexor, wellbutrin, cymbalta and so on just do not work. Psychotics cannot take Prozac.<br />
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Xanax-don't waste your time, doesn't do anything, not a darn thing. All those jerks taking it for's the biggest placebo effect I've ever seen.<br />
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If nothing they give you ever seems to work, Zyprexa would be the next step to try. Not a doctor but over the past 10 years it's the only thing that even felt like it worked.

I'm so sick of not feeling that I can rely on me- of feeling another sympton-of being told to be patient when my meds are tweaked- I want to be well- I tired of being embarassed of things I swear it felt like God was telling me to do- of being crazy. Is it ever gonna stop- please say yes

Has anyone tried Zyprexa with you? I hated everything, but it's the least intrusive and most helpful pill they have me.

And it does stop, take a little time, slow down. It's not who you are, it's just like acne or asthma except you have to feel ashamed about something that isn't your fault. They applaud you when you stop smoking crack or you haven't had a drink in 6 months. But we're the bad people. if you're a drunk or a meth addict, they send you to a beachfront resort and coddle you and hug you. If you're us, they toss you in a big room with a bunch of people, lock the door and throw pills at you. Keep safe and don't give up, please don't give up.

No one coddld me when I stopped drinking- I self medicated for 25 years