I Just Found Out...i have bipolar disorder. i found out yesterday and i feel so confused:(. my psychiatrist wants to start me on lithium next week. but im scared. i have severe depression. has anyone tried the naturopathic route? i feel very sad. i had severe depression where i lost touch with reality for 4 months and then a hypomanic episode for a month and a half. i was on antidepressants and then i almost killed myself before it kicked in. she says i would hav ebeen hospitalized. im so scared. im so scared of hallucinating. i dont know if i could live through another episode. this is only the beginning. also im scared of kidney and thyroid failure. what does this happen to me? i wish i had support. what is it like? i didn't even know i was depressed at the time i just didn't trust anyone. does that mean this will happen again? but when i was hypomanic i believed my doctor at the time so thats good. i dunno. im so scared. :( someone help me.... who has been through this? why me? although i feel so smart, i feel like i have tapped into so many gifts. i remember things so earsily and i have suh a good creative side. ghahh..
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