I Just Found Out...

i have bipolar disorder. i found out yesterday and i feel so confused:(. my psychiatrist wants to start me on lithium next week. but im scared. i have severe depression. has anyone tried the naturopathic route? i feel very sad. i had severe depression where i lost touch with reality for 4 months and then a hypomanic episode for a month and a half. i was on antidepressants and then i almost killed myself before it kicked in. she says i would hav ebeen hospitalized. im so scared. im so scared of hallucinating. i dont know if i could live through another episode. this is only the beginning. also im scared of kidney and thyroid failure. what does this happen to me? i wish i had support. what is it like? i didn't even know i was depressed at the time i just didn't trust anyone. does that mean this will happen again? but when i was hypomanic i believed my doctor at the time so thats good. i dunno. im so scared. :( someone help me.... who has been through this? why me? although i feel so smart, i feel like i have tapped into so many gifts. i remember things so earsily and i have suh a good creative side. ghahh..
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2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

I was a right mess, I had been undiagnosed for years and been taking the wrong medication before lithium, so I was in full break down when they put me on it. I have been on it 6 years now, and I can;t say i have had any real relapses depression still happens but it is so much easier to deal with, and I have always seek counselling when times are tough. I think this helps a great deal. it is different for everyone and remember alot of the time circumstances play a big roll in how we are feeling, but I know three others on lithium and we have all had similar experiences. The only thing is it can make you have pimples, but keep a cleanser handy and eve that won't be a problem. My symptoms were extreme depression, with extreme anger, I went quickly from one emotion to another, I also had no focus, every day I was going to be and do something different, I just could stay with one idea, so I was very erratic. now I am a lot more balanced, and my moods don't jump around, I have a fairly normal range of emotion. but I must say take any help that is on offer, it is scary I know, but it is better than living with untreated bi polar I assure! :) my life was a train wreck. now it is back on track.

I was on lithium, you have nothing to worry about. you may need to do a blood test now and again, but seriously you will be fine. lithium is a good drug, I had the usual side effects for the first couple weeks the it nothing. take ya pills and keep going to counselling....you literally will feel better for it.

reallky? have you ever had any relapses after taking it? how long have you beenb taking it? how bad was your first episode? is it scary? what were your symptoms