A Bipolar Starting Medical School

Life will never be the same since that incident that took place a few months ago; it was the night of my life, more or less the pinnacle point that would change my life forever. It changes me in a way that I could never imagine. The way I look at the world was never the same, the night when I had my first manic episode; it was the onset of my bipolar.

My manic was accompanied by auditory and visual hallucinations, the only thing that troubles me after all this while is that I was never suicidal nor depress. After that night, there wasn’t any more episode of hallucination nor was I delusional, it was once in a lifetime experience for me. I was intrigue as I knew for the first time in my life on how a psychotic mind works and the feeling of anxiety when you’re in a delusional state. Time flies and I manage to recover from my delusional state but I knew that it is far from over. 

The way I think would never be the same and yet I can’t wait to see the connection between creativity and bipolar disorder. I manage to get myself a place in medical school and I would start in a few months time. I hope I could distinguish myself from the others and perhaps achieve something in the field of medicine..
bipolarmedicalstudent bipolarmedicalstudent
22-25
1 Response May 6, 2012

Bipolar has helped and hurt me school, I am working on a masters of nursing at a in a program that has a 10% admitance rate, almost failed classes and recieved honors. For me juggling school, life, relationships, and work have been difficult esp. on top of bipolar. The roller coaster is esp. diffucult working in the medical field because not only do we have to adhere to licsencing (sp.) laws, societal expectations of behavior, need to hide our illness because of the stigma associated with it (that can effect us professionally), but the toll all of this takes on us with such inner struggles that haunt us without repise. On the positive side, I have a level of knowledge, empathy, creativity, and intituve understanding that a lot of my classmates do not have. Aspects of the human condition come naturally to me which has helped make me an effective clinician. A few good books I recommend are "An unquiet mind" and "Touched with fire", both are by Dr. Jamison Kay- she is just amazing and also in the medical field - this provides inspiration and insight as to what we can do regardless of our illness. Be sure to find ways to cope during episodes, I find keeping busy really helps me although the pain of not fullfilling commitments if diffucult, people generally don't mind becaue it is "unusual behavior" for me...