Bipolar Who Found A Light In The Brain

I am diagnosed with Type 1 Bipolar disorder. For those that don't know that means I have experienced at least one full-blown manic episode (I was awake for at least 5 days before I was admitted to a hospital).

I dropped out of two college programs because my illness was untamed. Now, I'm feeling stable. That is still an amazing thing to me.

What's even more amazing (in my eyes) is that I now have a goal in life. I want to study the human brain. I have studied human psychology and especially bipolar disorder mainly because I needed to understand it. Now, I want to understand it to the fullest extent of our current human knowledge and, furthermore, I want to break the boundaries of our collective knowledge.

I plan to become an experimental psychologist and scientifically find out how the human brain works. When I am finished school I will be able to perform studies and experiments to unlock the mysteries of our brain matter.

There was a time when I really expected that I was going to kill myself. I can now see a future; I see a reason to live.

If you are battling this illness know that there is hope even when you cannot see it. Everyone told me, "there is a light at the end of the tunnel". I wanted to punch those people in the face... I truly understand now that there was a light but my illness was casting a dark shadow over my life and I couldn't fathom it.

Don't be afraid to ask for help when you find it hard to stay strong. Finally, I am on the right side of stability and I realize there was a light all along.
GuardstheGrey GuardstheGrey
22-25, M
May 11, 2012