I Am Bipolar

I'm going to have a brain damage!

By: Cristina323232

Written on June 20th, 2012

I feel so out of control now. I just had mixed episodes of PB disorder and I feel that starts to cause brain damage or something like that. I feel I'm so stressed,depressed,and want to cry all the time but at the same time I still feel manic and as I'm too high . I do not know what to do! I feel so crazy and that I'm going to die soon. I've been manic for 5 months and I loved it! I got A+'s at school, made a lot of friends, had a lot of fun and I loved my life! I really don't want to lose that now! and I don't want to get depressed but I cannot do anything. I AM LOSEING MY MIND and I really do not know what to do. I have not taken any antidepressants for a long while, should I take them now? I really love to feel manic, and I really do not want to hurt myself nowadays as I used to do :(

By: Cristina323232

Age: 18-21 , Female

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1prettygirl

It is very confusing and scary.I have had my thoughts change so fast,they don't make sense anymore.Call his office anyway,they should hae a way to notify him for an emergency.If u feel like killing yourself,go to the er

Jun 20, 2012
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1prettygirl

Hi,yeah that sounds like a mixed episode.I have rapid cycling,It does feel as though u r going insane!Do u have a dr u can call.When i took antidepressants,w/o a mood stabilizer,i became more depressed.

Jun 20, 2012
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- Cristina323232
  My dr is out of town; that's why im freaking scared of getting worse coz I really don't know what to do then. It's as you said, I feel im going insane! as if I started to hear voices in my head saying I'm feeling great and want me to go out and others ask me to get into bed and start crying!
  
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