Pregnant, Without Meds And Confused

I don't know where to begin, about a month ago I found out that I was pregnant. I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 25 years old. And know how I was before medication was introduced to me. I have basically lived with this disease and with medications everything has seemed to be clearer and better. I always feared getting pregnant, because I didn't want to get off my medication. I don't regret getting pregnant, but I'm scared out of my mind. This is my first pregnancy, also.

I have been faithfully taking my medication and when I thought I may be pregnant, I quit taking my medication. When I found out that I was pregnant, I quit smoking; right away. Later, a few of my girlfriends tell me that I shouldn't of quit so fast. Because of different factors. I haven't smoked a cigarette, haven't had my medication, and I don't know how to cope.

I have noticed a difference in myself since I'm not on my medication. I know hormones are raging, since I'm pregnant; but I don't like seeing my old ways come to the surface. My boyfriend doesn't understand my moodiness and I don't know how to explain it to him. As I see some of my old ways resurface, it completely scares me. I don't know how to control my temper, with out my medication. When I'm on my medication, I'm mellow and always think before I speak. And now, I struggle with that. If anyone has any suggestions or anything that could help me. I'm willing to listen. One of my friends that is also a mother of 3 kids and bipolar, suggested I try to get back on a low dose of my medication. I don't want to do anything that will harm me, the baby or give me chances of it in the future.

I'm just trying to survive and taking things one day at a time. Look forward to any advice, suggestions and anything that is helpful. Thanks, ahead
UNCluv UNCluv
31-35, F
2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

Talk to the doctor. My heart goes out to you, my kids and wife are the only reason I'm remotely normal and I do everything for them. Get you partner a book and go together to a support group before the kid arrives. Its gonna be rollercoaster ride but a great one.

Thank you.

Generally speaking your OBGYN would be able to help you determine the medicine you should be taking. While I was pregnant I was unaware of my condition so I never had the medication. I currently do not take the medication and I focus my negative energy on putting thoughts in my journal and exercise, but trust me I haven't always been this way. Therapy is very therapuetic and I am starting that back this month actually and for the first time ever I am completely excited about it! I think your first best interest was to post on here and ask for advice..next go to the doctor and get their opinion. It's very good that you quit smoking, only because that is what is best for your unborn child. My doctors have always told me to never quit smoking without control over my disease...but I have been quit for two months now! Oh yes..it's also very good that you have a friend that has been through the same things as you that is very important...keep talking, it is the best therapy..it really is! Keep us informed and good luck!

Thank you so much. I will keep you posted.