Need Hope For The New Year!

I was diagnosed in my 20's and my Bipolar episodes come and go. I'll be ok for months, then crash and burn. I'm missing work, my friends don't get it. I'm going back to counseling and rethinking meds again. Taking meds makes me very nervous but am hoping that I'll find something that will work. I want to live life again. Be who I know I really am, without all rambling in my head.
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 23, 2013

The best thing you can do for yourself is just don't give up on trying to feel and be normal again. It took me 1-1/2 years of med changing until I got to where I needed to feel manageable. I got to a point I told the psych I wanted off everything and to start over. Sure enough he started weaning me off one of my drugs and waalaa! I started to feel normal on the other medicine I was on. I still go through episodes and just accept the fact they'll always be adjusting your medicine but it can be longer between those times if they can at least find a combination that'll make you stable, I didn't get diagnosed until I was 40 and had suffered greatly since I was a young teenager. I have tools I use depending on what kind of episode I'm having but keeping a communication with your doctor and therapist is important. And then I basically micromanage my emotions so of I'm feeling depressed, I ride the wave and each day make a baby step goal. It can be anything from, I'm going to take a shower, I'm going to fold one load of laundry, I'm going to shave...really it can snowball. I take a shower shave and feel a little better, the next day I get a Starbucks and throw in one load of laundry. I like to make them small and as I feel better I just add another one. In the manic stage I personally try to make myself take my anti anxiety pill for a couple days because mine tends to include anxiety. Or I use the energy to clean or get a project done but if it lasts too long, go to the doc. This sucks. But it can get better (then not) but then better again. Ride the wave instead of fighting it had also helped.