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I Am Bipolar

Control

By: jreaninneise
Written on February 12th, 2013
I go to shrink and therapist. I take my meds faithfully. I still don't seem to be able to control my moods. Right now I'm manic and depressed at same time. I hate this mood the most. Wanna cry, kick ***, party and sleep all at same time. I go to sleep praying every night I'll wake up stable. I'm thinking about asking shrink to up meds but scared he'll think I'm just wanting drugs. Anyone got any advice?
By: jreaninneise
Age: 46-50 , Female
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  • mmamomma2012
    mmamomma2012

    I know what you mean about not wanting to ask for increased dosages in fear of looking like an addict(sad that we have to worry about that). Sometimes you need to change the kinds of meds you are on. Are you on any antidepressants? That made my mania skyrocket! I cannot take any antidepressants. We also have to be careful about triggers. I was a nurse....waking up at 4:45am, working at the hospital(super stressful), and going to bed at 10:00(not actually falling asleep until 12am)! Needless to say I was a complete basket case! I had to stop working. I felt amazingly better after being home a few months. So to sum it all up... when I felt that way what helped me was a new doctor, new meds, and a lifestyle change(I have never been this stable). So if I were you I would talk to my doctor about my meds and lifestyle.

    Feb 12
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    • jreaninneise
      jreaninneise

      Thanks for the advice. I go see doc on 14th. Wish me luck.

      Feb 13
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    • mmamomma2012
      mmamomma2012

      Are you feeling better?

      Feb 26
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    • jreaninneise
      jreaninneise

      I talked to shrink and he said he could only put me on actual bipolar meds. I'm afraid of those. What if they are worse than the ones I'm already on? Sometimes I really hate meds.

      Mar 17
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    • mmamomma2012
      mmamomma2012

      Unfortunately with meds trial and error are the only way we'll know what works for us and what doesn't. Taking meds sucks! But sometimes we need to if we're going to feel better. If you have any side effects let your doctor know. There are usually a few different drugs in the same family that can be substituted. I'm on meds for bipolar disorder and besides the stigma that comes along with one of them(Lithium-people tend to think you're really crazy if you're on lithium!) they work very well for me. I am glad I found this combination(it took a while though). Just keep going, stay positive, and work on yourself. Things will get better :=)

      Mar 23
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    • jreaninneise
      jreaninneise

      ty, i feel better about trying it now

      Mar 23
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