My Story

I have bipolar disorder, I live for now and now is all I've got... I smile and live until the next one comes along and that carries me to the next and so on.... It's ok, I'm ok, for now... I can live and if I don't that's ok too...
mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
36-40, F
3 Responses Jul 9, 2007

I think I understand how you feel. I don't think I'm there yet. I'm still kind of fighting myself--forcing myself to be perfect all the time. My biggest frustration is when I have a huge epiphany or breakthrough while I'm manic, and it means nothing anymore when I'm normal or depressed. Has anyone else had that happen?

Wow I was just thinking about what you said about life or death being ok either way, and Thought of the title song to that CD to your left, one of the phrases is , "let me live untill I die, let me laugh until I cry, let me ask the reason why and interupt you in the middle of your answer.....""<br />
Anyway I just had an epiphone in that I'm pretty much saying the same thing and it really isn't that scary in itself. It's the rollercoaster that's scary.

At least in this case I can say I know how you feel,,,sometimes the goin up aint worth the comin down.