Pansexual And Trans

I'm a pansexual (someone that believes that there are more than just two genders and is attracted to them all) and a male to female transgender. I first discovered that I was different when I was 14. I started watching **** and found myself desiring to be the beautiful girl in all of those scenes. I became envious of girls being able to beautiful and desirable and wanted that for myself. I was caught crossdressing by my dad's then wife. (now divorced)
I got slapped and called a "***" by her. I hid my sexual orientation and gender identity for another 12-13 years until a year and a half ago. I realized that I'm still very much attracted to men and I have had 3 men in my life since, including my current boyfriend. I came out as transgender around christmas of 2011, and have working to transition since then. The thing with that is, I now consider my relationship with my man to be "straight" as opposed to gay. The even stranger thing is that I find myself more attracted to other women now than I do to men. Perhaps I alternate between men and women, although I would love to date another transwoman like myself.
I'm completely out and open about who I am now because living in the closet for as long as I had been was absolute hell for me and I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

I've had some negative experiences with people's attitudes towards both my sexual orientation as well as my gender identity. (more so the latter to be honest)
I just remember that it's my life and I will live it as I see fit. I know people say/do things with good intentions because of their personal beliefs and what not, but as the saying goes, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
So my advice is to love who you want to love and be who you want to be in life and don't ever let anyone try to stop you. :)
jessicametal69 jessicametal69
26-30, T
Jan 6, 2013