I Am Bisexual
Please leave your preconceived notions behind you.
How do I explain?
First of all to understand where I’m coming from you have to understand my orientation. I believe in the Kinsey scale and I would probably rank around a 5 (???) which means I am mostly attracted to women but I am also attracted to certain men.
I didn’t really come out until just after high school I made some new friends and they were fun, we went out and I felt like they understood me. They were lesbians and by this time I knew I was bi I hadn’t said anything because I didn’t realize it was an issue, I’ve always been really open about being bi it just hadn’t come up.
About 6 months later I was on the phone with one of them telling them about this girl I was seeing - I mentioned she saw bi - and the very first thing she said was “Oh no you don’t mess around with bi girls..” and started telling me all the reasons why.. Now this was someone I actually knew and cared about, someone they had never met. Needless to say, I did not bring up that I was bi too, but I no longer felt comfortable around them after that. The core of that group of friends moved away shortly after and I kind of went my own way and don’t even know them anymore.
From there it has gone from bad to worse. I could hide that I am bi but I refuse to do that. It is the gay community that has pressured me to stay in the closet. Stop right here for a second. I want you to re-read that sentence. It is the gay community that has pressure me to stay closeted. - True story.
I can say I have had gay friends but mostly they shrug me off as an outsider and judge me. I don’t feel accepted by the gay community at all. Biphobia -the gayest word ever- is really rampant even gay leaders and main publishers perpetuate it and refuse to see it for it is - just plain bigotry. I hear the reasons for all this, but it just doesn’t wash. Gay people are afraid a bisexual will leave them for the opposite sex seems like the main one. But for this reason bi people are ostracized from the gay community?
I could go on and tell people ‘I never cheated..” or explain my sexuality to complete strangers, etc. but I wont do that. I’m not going to be the exception to YOUR NORM. I really wish this wasnt the truth but it is and Ive had to accept it.
It really pains me. Especially knowing there are young bi boys and girls coming out who are going to turn to the LGBT community expecting acceptance that are going to get slapped right in the face by it like it did me. I wish I could help them. To them I say stay away from LGT cuz they will only give you grief and heartache!
How do I explain?
First of all to understand where I’m coming from you have to understand my orientation. I believe in the Kinsey scale and I would probably rank around a 5 (???) which means I am mostly attracted to women but I am also attracted to certain men.
I didn’t really come out until just after high school I made some new friends and they were fun, we went out and I felt like they understood me. They were lesbians and by this time I knew I was bi I hadn’t said anything because I didn’t realize it was an issue, I’ve always been really open about being bi it just hadn’t come up.
About 6 months later I was on the phone with one of them telling them about this girl I was seeing - I mentioned she saw bi - and the very first thing she said was “Oh no you don’t mess around with bi girls..” and started telling me all the reasons why.. Now this was someone I actually knew and cared about, someone they had never met. Needless to say, I did not bring up that I was bi too, but I no longer felt comfortable around them after that. The core of that group of friends moved away shortly after and I kind of went my own way and don’t even know them anymore.
From there it has gone from bad to worse. I could hide that I am bi but I refuse to do that. It is the gay community that has pressured me to stay in the closet. Stop right here for a second. I want you to re-read that sentence. It is the gay community that has pressure me to stay closeted. - True story.
I can say I have had gay friends but mostly they shrug me off as an outsider and judge me. I don’t feel accepted by the gay community at all. Biphobia -the gayest word ever- is really rampant even gay leaders and main publishers perpetuate it and refuse to see it for it is - just plain bigotry. I hear the reasons for all this, but it just doesn’t wash. Gay people are afraid a bisexual will leave them for the opposite sex seems like the main one. But for this reason bi people are ostracized from the gay community?
I could go on and tell people ‘I never cheated..” or explain my sexuality to complete strangers, etc. but I wont do that. I’m not going to be the exception to YOUR NORM. I really wish this wasnt the truth but it is and Ive had to accept it.
It really pains me. Especially knowing there are young bi boys and girls coming out who are going to turn to the LGBT community expecting acceptance that are going to get slapped right in the face by it like it did me. I wish I could help them. To them I say stay away from LGT cuz they will only give you grief and heartache!
By:
1sarah
Age:
31-35
,
Female
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