Although Bats Aren't Blind....

Bats aren't actually blind (that's just a myth), but I practically am lol. I started wearing glasses in the first grade, a month after my seventh birthday. I was afraid at first that people were going to make fun of me for it, but they didn't. I turned 27 a month & a half ago, so I guess it's my twentieth anniversary of wearing glasses lol. For a while, I also wore contacts, but it got to the point that I couldn't afford them. Glasses themselves are incredibly expensive, especially when you have no health insurance & have to pay for them yourself. When I wore contacts, I was always prescribed one type: "Bausch & Lomb 66 Toric". I still have no idea what "toric" means, & because of my social phobia/anxiety I was afraid to ask the doctor. I was scared enough to be in the office lol. I couldn't see very well in them, anyway. Well, the last time I got a pair of glasses (about three years ago), my prescription was so bad that I had to pay to have the thickness lessened. That cost a LOT of money. My frames were only $59, while my lenses were $400 (!!!!!). Luckily, I had a 50% off discount & put them on a credit card, or else I wouldn't have been able to buy them.

Without my glasses all I see is a colored, hazy fog. I can't see any edges... even rectangle or square objects seem almost circular because of the blurriness. There are times when my eyesight seems worse. Sometimes I'll wake up &, even with my glasses, can barely see. It started about a year & a half- two years ago & I'm not sure what's causing it. I wish I had money or health insurance so I could have my eyes checked, but since I have neither, that's out of the question. I need to get a new pair of glasses, since it's been three years, but, again, I can't afford it. I sometimes wish I could just see decently without them. Laser eye surgery would be great, though I think my eyesight is too bad for me to qualify for it. Plus the idea of my cornea being cut open certainly doesn't appeal to me & is a major detterent .

lyricalongings lyricalongings
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 10, 2009

Yeah, I know how it is for you with everything a blur - well put, "no square edges" as you said because everything is blurred.. This year is my 22nd anniversary of wearing glasses and I'm only 25. I can't remember waking up and not having to fumble around on my bedside table for my trusty "antburners" as I love to call them. I wear 12mm thick lenticular lenses which are like a sort of fried egg. The circular "seeing part" of the lens sits like an egg yolk on the thinner carrier lens which is at the edge of the main lens. The lenses make my eyes look huge. I'd be a rich man if I had a dollar for every time someone has asked :"How do you see through those things?" Laser is out for me and I can't see well enough to put contacts in. Somehow I passed the driving licence eye test. And I'm a very careful driver. But I've adapted to having bad eyesight. I wear presc<x>ription goggles for swimming and read large print books where possible. I've got everyone in my office to print memos to me in 14 point. Needing to wearing uber thick glasses is a small price to pay for being able to see.