Bored Loney Everythingeveryone knows those nights when you cant sleep, your mind is just full, but at the same time empty.
its one of those nights, if any readers out there are like me, then you do everything you can to please someone else, friends, family strangers, what ever. but when you really need something, when you need to talk to someone it is like everything is lost like the world is gone it **** and no one cares about u.
i dont understand how one can give so much and have noone there for them?
also if you guys out there are anything like me, no matter how good you do at something, no matter how much prasie you get from countless people, you cant help but feel blue at the end of the day, like your a worthless peace of shitt.
i just think how much media and government controlls us, how they gett us to think a certain way, you may not belive it, but people and organizations run your life more than you know, school, controlled by somone, home controlled by parents, job your boss.. theres barely anything were in controll of, so i can we say anything is really us, if all are actions are govered by others.. who does that make us. are we any difforent then the worker ant. where even worse of becuase we have these things called minds, which are preventing sleep. at least a worker ant knows it place. us, me we always strive for more, nothing ever makes us fully happy, sometimes we think we are.. but months latter we see it was all fake.
sure lifes about the experince.. i mean im glad for what i have learned, but whats the point when theres no one to share it with, yea you may give somone advice, but it all gos back to where are they when you need them.
i n my case, where are my friends no.. why is it i turn to a random cite to fill my thoughts..
what i spent all my life to achive
only last as long as the fire burns
one event can change your life
so why bother living life