Once Again

once again, here i am. lonely and bored.

but this time i'm also frustrated.

i'm angry that i can never seem to be able to be happy in a relationship. i'm one of those really really needy people who just seem to never be satisefied and always look for bad aspects of everything.

like my current relationship wif my boyfriend.

he's so smart and nice and amazing, but he's so busy. i talk to him every day, but we never talk for long. i only see him once a week at most and it gets tough cuz i'm extremely needy. i'm one of those people who need to see the one she loves as much as possible. *sigh*

joetehgirl joetehgirl
18-21, F
2 Responses Dec 1, 2008

@daretolove... Does he feel the same way you do? is it possible your in love with the idea? Sometimes we want someone or something so bad and when we get it, It isn't what we thought it would be! If your first love wasn't in the picture how would you feel about your marriage? would you still be looking for someone to meet your needs?

i know how you feel. im in love with my first love that is back in my life after 36 years. he works 6 days a week and most weeks 70 to 80 hours. We're both married, but he has worked away from home most of his life. i just can't seem to get enough of him, and being the other woman even makes it more difficult. i think i am also very needy and somewhat insecure because I feel so in love with him after so many years. So far we've been talking for about six months, and because our relationship is secret i'm the one that usually has to call, and if it was up to me we would talk all the time, i really can't get him out of my mind/ He lives 1000 miles away from me and i hope to see him over Christmas, but i'm sure it won't be enough to satisfy me. Sometimes my sigh goes to a cry because i love him so much, and it doesn't seem like it will ever be possible.