I'm Missing Out On So Much...

I'm missing out on so much. I work all the time, which is what I prefer really - but I don't want to only work like this for the rest of my life. I just don't know how to change things.
eyes eyes
31-35, F
13 Responses Nov 30, 2007

All work and no play makes Jill a dull girl. I use to be married to my job(s). Home life was ok but I felt as though I had to be working all of the time. One day I looked at my son and realized that he was 8 years old. Just yesterday, we were changing diapers. Reminds me of a song by Cat's Steven - "The Cats in the Cradle". Now my life centers around him and I am enjoying doing things outside of the job. I didn't want to miss out on the most precious part of my or his life.

I can relate very much to missing out. I am a workaholic. I think I enjoy work more than most because work has always been my saftey blanket. I am on my second marriage and know that I need to spend more time with my family. I love my family but I don't know how to change so that I could allow myself to spend more time with them. I know it isn't fair which is why is bothers me. I do want things to change.

I dont bother having a family

I work all the time too. When I am not working I drink. I think we have to concentrate on making a life for a wonderful person. That would be you

Analyze the condition where you most concentrate on your writing and try to duplicate as much as possible are there other motivation that can encourage you to write find them and get back at it . Set goals and deadline , not to discourage you but to set mile stone as things get accomplished . Have priorities as when things need to be done and set writing as one of the highest priorities . <br />
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Basically set the same goal and guide line that you give to the children you teach to yourself .<br />
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I'm sure if you need someone to crack the whip on you ,you could have us on EP do that if so wished .

I'm not sure its boredom that gets me. I have issues concentrating on anything unless someone is helping me focus... and i haven't had that in a long time.

I had a problem concentrating most of my life. I got tested and counseled last year and found out that I had severe ADD. Since treated, I return to college and can remember things back to my childhood. Regarding concentration, I can now play 3 dimensional chess in my head.

I'm on meds for my ADHD now

We have alot in common, i started writing a novel as well, but didnt finish it. when i work i feel good but when im at home its almost as if i cant breath. i want to go out and see the world, do something. but i lack the motivation to do it, im in college studying law and and fail my classes because i get bored and start drinking alot durring the middle of the semester. i feel good when i write, my feelings, down, I walk around like everything is roses but im hurting and i think nobody knows this. life is repetitive, lets sedative.

LOL<br />
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I actually want to concentrate on my novel :P

Well, go to it & do it (poetry ;^) I know you have the talent & the passion. Move move move little lady (LOL)

i've had previously had people who did help motivate me<br />
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they forced me to talk about it, to think about it, reminded me i need to sit down and work on it, that the other stuff can wait

they are all at the top, the problem is that i never really get anything done on them, because i lack the motivation<br />
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i am - and i am not bragging here - a really really good writer, when i am motivated<br />
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I have been told time and time again I could actually support myself off my writing, if I would just finish my stories and send them out. I have even had one lady who worked for a small publishing firm take an interest in me, gave me her number... I never called her. <br />
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I get so easily caught up in my day to day, my teaching, my grading, that i never make time to do the other stuff<br />
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that is actually one thing i want in a partner, if i ever get one... i want someone to motivate me, to make me sit down and do my writing

too many things - that seems to be the biggest problem I have

i know my purpose.... i am living it... i am a teacher<br />
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i don't know what else i really want though, aside from some things i know i don't know, i am clueless

Don't even know what i want, lol