I think the title is a little misleading.

I'm not bored just this minute, I'm bored clear through to my bones.

Everything I've sat down to do as a means of distraction has me fidgety and annoyed in minutes.
I have been able to get a few constructive things done, but obligation forced my hand.
This site has just enough random, sparkly, dangly bits to occasionally cause my brain to bat the mouse on the string a few times. Unfortunately when in this temperament I tend to have little patience for conversation and probably end up alienating myself more than usual.
Everyone needs attention to some degree and I admit I am no different, but how do I satisfy something internally that I'm not even sure is satiable?
I tend to cycle from one distraction to another.
Is it because nothing I try is ever truly satisfying that which I'm truly craving?

Am I incapable of being satisfied?

I disapprove of the labels Optimist or Pessimist. I'm confident that I'm capable of looking past these labels and seeing what chances there truly are for perceived success or failure.
I am all for having Hope and looking for a brighter future.
I also understand there are no guarantees in life besides an eventual end.
Some see The End as a good thing and others fear it.
I digress.
I want to know what is missing.

I wish I was capable of trying, EVERYTHING. I don't mean drugs and alcohol, because I don't want everything artificially skewed.
I would rather have my life skewed by personal interactions.
I think people are capable of much more personal enlightenment and destruction than drugs or alcohol...

That's all I have for now.
noodleloaf noodleloaf
41-45, M
1 Response Aug 27, 2014

Beautifully written and I couldn't say it any better!
I feel the same way and at times what you are feeling mirrors me exactly.

Usually I'll get private messages going on here. Even that last 2 days tops then I'm bored of it. What am I seeking??