The Demon Ennui

I hate being boring. Sitting here thinking about my life and all the things I used to do and places I would go are yesterday’s memories. Today my life is, in a word, boring. The tedium drive me crazy. The most exciting thing I have done lately is purchase a toy from an adult store, to meet some unmet needs in my sexless marriage. I have used it twice. My excitement is from a long, too long, played video game. Gee 39 and that's all I have to look forward to each day.   I long for the rush of excitement, of human touch, or hell, even a good movie. Instead it’s boring and I am cursed by the demon ennui. I am convinced life, outside of caring for the children I am blessed with, is ultimately meaningless. 

Smokeseek Smokeseek
36-40, M
5 Responses Mar 20, 2009

Chat to me. I would love to run my hands all over your body. Xxx

ennui is lifelessness and boredom...during the middle ages ennui was thought to be a demon, as such boredom used to affect the monks.

What is "demon ennui"?

I can so relate now that my kids are older and busy living life, my life has come down to working, and being on the computer and nothing else, Oh I have tried to lighten the fire in the marriage but have failed, and I sit everyday lost and alone....sorry to hear you are also feeling bored...btw I have also had to lean on toys for satisfaction ;_

hank you for commenting on my Demon Ennui story. I am full or words I never get to use in my everyday life. I thought "ennui" perfectly described how I felt at the moment I wrote it.<br />
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I am better today. I just have my moments.