I Am Broken Down

I found myself literally on my knees today in shock. These last few months have been bad, but these last few weeks have been agonizing.

I've failed everyone, and I dont think there is anyway to fix it. If there is, I dont know how, and I doubt anyone wants to help me.

Ive talked to people in the past and no one has believed me, it was as big of a joke as I am. In the last few weeks I put on a smile, only to come home, and sit in the dark, with the lights off and curtains closed. Its a numbing feeling when you know you've screwed up big time.

Since I started college everything around me has come crashing down: slowly and painfully.

This is why I wish colleges, no matter how small, would offer more help to students, and not treat the word SUICIDE like a curse word.

FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
18-21, F
1 Response Apr 27, 2009

I don't like to hear suicide, but I know that sometimes it seems like you have come to the end of the road and there are no options in sight. I don't know what it is that you feel that you have "screwed up", but I bet it can be fixed, or started over...