Register

I Am Breaking Into Pieces

Dunno What to Do

By: SunnyKris
Written on October 25th, 2007
faye, who i have written about elsewhere, is having a crapload of tests done tomorrow.  i am worried and scared and hurting...  and feel so d@mn alone.  she has been pushing me away lately, and i know it is because shes scared of what the tests will show.  but that doesnt make it any easier to handle.

i offered to go with her, and she refused...  that one hurt, too.  mad as i get at her sometimes, i still love the girl with my whole heart.  i want to help, to offer support, and she isnt letting me draw close. 

so i wait, and pretend like i am not worried...  and it stinks.  i am breaking apart a little bit at a time, but for her, i pretend otherwise.
By: SunnyKris
Age: 26-30 , Female
506 people have read this story

Your Response

Please respond with authenticity, support, and respect
By clicking "Post", you confirm that you agree to the Terms of Service of Experience Project, Inc.
1 response
  • Eggsplosion
    Eggsplosion

    I do that too sometimes...push those I care about away. Maybe you need to be vocal. Tell her your feelings, your conserns. Tell her you are there to be leaned on... or not. But that you are there for her if she needs it.

    I know you probably feel hurt. But think about it this way... playing devils advocate, isn't that selfsh? I mean they are the sick one not you and here your worried about your feelings. Just remember sometimes it's easier to push others away because that is one less person I have to talk to about the worries and pretend everything is ok.



    Good Luck I'm a believer in fate, there's a reason for everything.

    Oct 25, 2007
    1 like