Broken UpA lot of people think I haven't gotten any problems on this site, but I assure you all that I am as broken as the next.
I don't post much about my brokenness because I am sort of ashamed of it. I try to smile for everyone and make you guys laugh, or I try to comfort if and when I can, but I do have my own issues to deal with believe me.
I fear relationships because I fear the pain that I associate with them. I fear closeness and friendship for the same reason, which makes for a lonely life for the most part.
I try to pick up the pieces of my brokenness and put them back together but it seems they fall apart sometimes as fast as I put them back in place. I am trying my very bast as of lately to get them back together because of someone I have met, but I feel I am unworthy because of my brokenness. I am also very insecure because of the past. My poor heart is almost afraid to beat anymore it seems. But I'm doing my best. I don't want to be like this forever. Sometimes the simplest of things will cause the pieces to go flying and I am very ashamed when they do. Times like now.
I'm sorry my friends if I seem distant sometimes or if I don't make ya smile when you are needing one. Sometimes you have to be a little patient with me.
BlueGeorgia 41-45, M 14 Responses 7 Dec 24, 2007