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An Unbelievable True Love Story Of A Broken Heart


Since my birth i never had any good reason to smile and to be happy. There is no one whom I can say that he or she is mine, and I can’t share anything to anyone because there was no one who cares me. Even my parents don’t cares me, I used to go away from home and cried alone thinking someone will come for me and take me back, probably my dad, but no, I wiped my tears myself, I satisfied my heart myself and return home and locked myself in my room. I see around how the parents cares and loves their child, but to me that was a dream. But then also i never blame them.
I never hurt anybody, i never lie to anybody, i never deceive anybody then also i get all these. The thing which i love most goes far from me, first goes my mom, then my friend and then....(you will know later)

i thought that everyone has someone, everybody gets their love one day, and i thought that some day some girl will love me, she will make me forget the pain i have suffered, she will hold me, she will support me, and she will make me complete. Then i started searching for my love, first i tried to find my love in my city then other cities within my country but the one whom i tried to be close those always make my fun and ignored me. Then i realize that to get love you must have something to give her, even if my parents don't  show love to me unless i do anything for them then why an unknown girl will love me?, but i have nothing to give except love, but i have seen some lovers who loved so passionately without any reason, they proved that true love exist and for true love you need just a true heart and nothing else. Then i started looking for love over internet, this might sound insane and nonsense, but i have strong believe that i will find her, because if a guy like me could search love in internet then why not a girl like me? somewhere someone maybe like me and one day i will find her out from millions, no matter how far will be she and how will be she i will reach her and be with her, then i found someone one day.
                           
                                                  
one day i met a girl in an Emo group, we became friends and then lovers.   we started sharing our love. First she made me believe that she is true and won't lie to me, i believed her totally, and she also assured me that she believes me and trust me, we love each other too much, though we were far, we used to share our feelings and love through messages and phone. she gave me such a love and she care me so much. The way she loved me and the way she cared me that was WOW!!!, i never felt such an exhilarating feelings, she gave me reasons to live, she gave me reason to fight, she gave me such an strength that no one or nothing can make me down, she supported me so much that even if i get failure in my research or studies  then also i never felt bad or weak but i worked more in it.  she used to call me and send me sms time to time everyday and even i too do that whenever i got credit in my phone. she used to call me whenever she was online and stayed only with me, chatting.

we used to love each others like an angels of love, we were like an romantic lovers as we were the lovers of a love story or movie. 
Along with her love some hardest things also appeared, the worries about her, she was far from me and i cannot know how she was, and what she was doing, every time her thoughts killed me, she told me her parents were step and her brothers too, she said no one cared her and loved her there, and then i cannot breath here, i thought if anything hurts her there and if she needs someone to wipe her tears then who will do that, because i am here and i can't  hold her, i never fear anything in my life, i never cared for anything in my life before i met her, but when i met her i fear dying, i fear losing her, i fear if what will i do if i failed because i cannot be with her if i fail in my life, but she made me feel good, she promised hundred times that she won't leave me, she said if i cannot reach her then she gonna come to me. We were really a soulmate, whenever i was sad and i need her she knew that and she used to call me and ask "Baby are you ok?", or she appeared online even if she was not suppose to come, and i too knew about her heart. we used to stay whole night in skype on friday and saturday because other days she was in school hostel. i used to sit waiting her to come in skype for 8 hours without leaving my computer for a second. one day when i was drunk i cut my chest to write her name and when i told her that she got so angry and from that day she never slept whole night whenever i was drunk, she worried that if i might not cut myself again, she used to call me whole night and ask me to not to do any such crazy things, every morning she send me message and told me about the dream she had. we dream so many beautiful things together, we planned many things for our life. we used to talk that we gonna tell out love story to our kids when we will turn gray. Those dreams that we envisaged together where so overwhelming, just i could say wow.

And from the day i met her i never ever thought of anything else, i used to think what should i do for her, what should i do to reach her fast, i never want anything in my life for myself, but i want to give everything to her, i want to give her a life of princess. I planned my whole life for her, i planned everything to reach her.
i have seen many peoples living away from their girlfriend or wife for long time, for 5 years or for 10 years but they always waited and i too have same hope, after my bachelor's degree after 4 years i could go there and stay there with her, for forever. we just have to wait for 4 years maximum. She said she will wait for me for forever, even she said she is planning to come for me after 1 year. 
Anyhow anyway i was so so happy to have her though far, no matter if we cannot stay together, no matter if we cannot hold each other in our arms, no matter if we cannot kiss each other, i feel all those just from her words and thoughts, whenever i was talking with her, i forget this whole world and i feel like i am in heaven.
But one day suddenly she said she don't want to be my girlfriend anymore, she loves another guy, who is from russia, she said he is close to her country Latvia and she needs him, that was the greatest shock in my whole life, i nearly got an heart attack my whole body shuddered, i was nearly dead, but the truth was she left me, i could not sleep, i stay whole night crying, and i could not believe the girl who loved me so much and who had told just told me she loves me more then her life just half and hour ago and after half an hour she told me that , i never did anything wrong nor i hurt her once in that way, though we used to have light fight which was always joke for us, we never had anything wrong between us.
i could not believe that, first for two days i just keep on crying, i didn't eat anything, i cannot dare to stand and sit, i just keep lying in my bed and crying, then after 3 days i asked her why she loves him, she says she is not good for me, she wants a bad guy, not a guy like me, could you believe it? 
i can never ever believe this, a girl who loves me so much could leave me like that,
then i started to think and i remember her each and everything why she leaves me like that, then i felt she might have some mental disorders, because sometime she act so abnormal and speaks so strange, and that makes my heart pound, i thought she have left me because she may think that i will leave her when i knew that or i may not survive it, but i am not like that, i love her truly, if that was truth then i could spend my whole life by her side, i will protect her, i will care her, and i will try each and every thing to give her life, i will put my each and every efforts to bring my Linda back.
but she says she don't have any such things,
she says i should make another girlfriend, but when she says that it hurts me most, you cannot imagine how it pains to know that your love loves someone, you don't know how it pains when a girl who calls you "my love" "honey" my angel" called you directly with your name, you don't know how it makes you cry if the girl who cares you so much now ignore you so much

the words she used when she left me gave me such an intolerable pain that i would rather die then to bear it, but i cannot die, because it won't make her any sense actually to no one, everybody says i should forget her and move on, but how can i? i am not like other strong guys who could move on so easily, i cannot love any other girl except her, actually my heart loves her so if i have to stop loving her then i have to throw my heart out.
But for her happiness i have to be away from her.
 
how innocent is she that i know, how lovely girl is she that i know, and that makes me cry, i know one day that guy will live her and she will feel the pain like me, but i can't see my linda sad, hurt. i can't see my linda feeling the pain like this. i cannot see even a single drop of tears in her eyes, i don't want her to be with me, but i want her to the right guy, i want her to be happy for her whole life. And this makes me cry, right now while writing this story the tear are falling in my keyboard of this computer. I am not angry but hurt, how can i be angry with her, i know she is innocent and she don't know what is right. 

i will prove my love one day, no matter how hard i have to do but i will prove my love is true, i will  stay my whole life alone, no matter if she loves any other guy or if she marry any other man i won't do that, i will never love or marry any other girl, i cannot break my promises though she did.
one day i will go to her country and see her face and see if she is happy or not.  

This pain will never leave me, her thoughts always haunt me every second, i used to love music so much but now i can't hear even a single song because the lyrics of these songs reminds me of her and make me cry,
but it is my test, i will love her till i have my last breath. And stay alone for my whole life.

Every body says i am crazy, i am insane, that i love such a girl whom i met in internet, they says love over internet is not true, but how can i confess it, i love her truly and i can't stop it, love is never done for any reason, it just happens and when it happens it never stop.
 But nothing matters to her, whatever i do she never cares me anymore. 

But she proved me one thing that, this love and care is not for me, i doesn't deserve a love, this is my fate, and i will never get love. now my search for love is stopped. I will live with tears and sorrows, but  i think i will love this loneliness and enjoy it after few years and i could be happy to myself,

   i don't care if anybody knows my love was true or not, i don't care if she know that i lived my whole life for her, but my soul and heaven knows that i am true, and while i die at last i could say proudly " i prove i was true and i loves her truly till end" ..........

  Hope you will understand me and won't call me a insane.................

 
Eripzo Eripzo 18-21, M 45 Responses Nov 10, 2011

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How interesting ,I am from LV but I am in USA 10years and this year in June two weeks after me and my b-friend moved together he sad I am not right for him,it was lot of tiers I moved to other city-near Atlanta and I want to tell you I was looking for heartbreaking stories and here I am ,reading your story and I felt your pain.........

i know how it feels my love left me as well for some other girl he ditched me and m here waiting for him dying to see him i wish ur love and my love understand how it feels .... :'( it is the worst feeling ever when you love someone so much and you are so close to them and suddenly one day that person say that he or she loves someone else :'(

your not insane friend we are same i met her on facebook and she live in romania and m in pakistan we had 2 year relationship and were always talking to each other on facebook and skype text on phone too but in the end she told about me to her parents but her parents didnt accept me for her because of my religion and distance i am muslim but her last words is that she said to me that she still love me and then she gone and she is not with another guy but my plan was that i will go to her country and meet her and prove my love to her and make her parents to accept me

Ur not crazy bro I once loved a girl, 7 years ago she broke my heart I was around 15 years old and now I never I loved a girl the way I loved her every time I remember her my heart just hurts also she is married and because of her I broke innocent hearts I never trusted girls again I also found out that the way this world works is u eat or get eaten.

you ar great and true lover..i really proud to hear u

its matching wid some of mine , n realy it nly hurts nd gv nly pain n sorrows

i also belong to the same cat i can understan how it will be without our loved ones but the things is in love that if we love someone wholeheartdly we wont go for second one because we have submited ourself to them and again we cant do it for others.... its true that at the touch of love everyone becomes poet....hats off to you man

U r nt insane,,,true love is jst like it,,it is crazy nd dnt have any reasn,,..i cn undestand u,,,i too suffered d same pain💔

you wrote it on nov 10 2011, i wonder how you're feeling right now

you are crazy! but so am I....I'm in love with this guy who I met online, but I left him...he was taken away from me :'( he may think I've moved on but honestly every night I think about being close to him, every day I wish I could be by his side. I wish to be part of his life again, but I know he wont take me back. I was a screw up and I am somewhat like a player. But I know that I love him truly, even though I toy with others I will always want him :) I totally get you friend

i have also gone through this pain bro.... but know one thing if your love is true you will surely have a good result n one day she will get to know about this... just dont loose hope... go on with your career.. Good luck bro

spechless it make me so spechless while readin yor trulv story.. I wz googlin actualy to read hrtbrok story n i got yor story.. Actly m too hrtbrok so i cn fl it n yo r nt insane n trulv is hard to move on wit anthr.. Trulv hpn only once th rest is jst lyf t.c hope yo get yor lv soon stay hapy z

Listen I knw every1z tellin u to move on
Plzz dis is lyf move on
Dat grl she dosnt knw wat she lost ....... u r da type of guy Every grl dreams about .... a guy who ll love her till da end ..... best of luck and go and find ur soulmate

Bro never limit your world and life you deserve. Better than this.free your heart and never let past prison your heart to death. Try to move on and see what life has for you.

My boyfriend left me after 2 years together. He was my first love. He left me 3 months ago. Today is my birthday, and he didnt text me or anything. He got a new girlfriend a week after we broke up, worst someone he had introduced me to when they were friends. I keep wondering if he was cheating on me because it was long distance and it woukd have been so easy. My friends (like yours) say to move on and forget, but I choose to remember. Because if someone who wasnt right for you can make you feel so loved, imagine how the right person will make you feel! She lost a good man and I pity her. I hope my boyfriend is happy with his new life, but I also know he changed from the innocent person I fell for. I truly understand and empathize with you. Just try to remember all the great times you had, because what you had was real. Trust that she loved you, and she wanted you to be happy and successful. She wants to find the right girl. Go out and be the man she hopes you'll turn out to be. As for the cutting part, maybe you should drink with a trusted friend :)
-but what do I know?-

I was looking also for online love... and now I found one, but that guy hurts me and you know... is not really great, you feel that pain in your chest, the hole in your stomach and you get all the time dizzy... I know those feelings :)
If you need a person to talk with about anything, add me on facebook : Gabriela Vladusel :) Take care

Feeling really bad. But always look on the bright side. Try to enjoy little things in ur life and be happy :)

From Nov.1,im also crying.....brother why they R unable to choose TRUE love.... don't know....

bro ur life is a bit sorrow to me but u will have great life a head..and i care u friend dont give up start to find a new love.

hi good story to read because i have experienced the same pain in my life with my girl friend saying good bye and flirting with other boys.

This story is touching.take heart bro

Well. I've a same story :) But, I never had power to express my feelings, and infront of me my best friend took her away from me :S

Thats terrible! Im so sorry.

Really dude , u r true lover... Handoff 4 u.. Your story teach me alots of things.. Because of you( lovers like) still proves true love never dies

Yes!!! When my BF left me, I wasnt sure guys could be like this but now I know that there are trustworthy and sweet guys out there.

Eripzo..first of all..let me tell you one thing very clear and straight..the word 'love' were interpreted differently by you and her.guys like you are getting rarer with every passing day.you are right you are insane because not many people would be able to think and do things you have done because to them everything is a profit and loss statement and they don't know that in love there is only way to earn profits i.e when you give someone everything unconditionally.good people like you always get end up hurting themselves because people like you live for their love,love happens to them in a moment and they spend their entire life in living up to the promises and feelings that they experienced in that moment.love is short..forgetting is never ending.i read a line wherein you wish to stay your entire life single living up to the promises that you have made.well that's your choice but as a neutral observer i would like to point out one thing here,by doing the intended you will deprive somebody of all the love that person deserves and should get from you.if you wish to stay single all your life you will facilitate the process of making another Eripzo who will suffer just like you.You have not lost anything out of this bitter experience.You know what love is,you know how to love the person even if she doesn't mind sandpapering your heart.You know what pain is and how it sucks the life out of you,you know what promises are and how you should be true to them and the most important of all by now you should know that if she has left you out of no reason without a slightest of hints then she is more than capable of doing that to you in life at any time.You should thank God that you didn't leave your country and move to an alien place just to find pain and agony in life may be there was worse waiting for you and God saw your honesty and saved you from all that. i'm so heartened to see that you are such a nice guy and i would like you to know that you have done enough for this girl,you should be proud that you held your end and please for God's sake give your feelings and emotions some respect and prestige that it deserves and love in the way you know but love the one who understands and deserves everything you do for her..

I love it, you telling the right words .........

hats off to u Eripzo i really cried wen readin this coz me 2 too muj hurt :'(

if it is a real story of you Eripzo, it was so sad dear friend, many people faces situation like this after falling in love but only few could stay with his or her separated love with a broken heart and make a valuable promise just for his or her true love.
It was really your great love without seeing her you gave everything to her. She could not understand your love but you also deserve a great love in your life. The lord bless you..for your true feelings of love.

Hey dude eripzo it was very saddening story of yours bro.. But it kept me tied up fir 15 mins. Twas v interesting.. Nicely written..!! Wanna meet you.!

The same occurance had happend with me

perhaps this girl was totally fake, some guys also like that , this girl said that she's mother and brother are step . there are some guys also in the world who can said that his mom dad death he is fully lonely , he said that lies only for impress girl .

i too going in the same phase ds days as Author had,,, I can fl ds pain, ds flngs,, i wanna make my lyf too ds way,, for the sake of my immortal lyf