I know I'm not the type to be loved. I know what men want and it has nothing to do with my heart. The walls are slowly being built. It is a long painful process but one that will be worth it in the end. I will not fall again.
bzylady bzylady
36-40, F
1 Response Aug 21, 2014

Do we choose to fall or does it happen unexpectedly?

Usually unexpectedly. I'm hoping that if I can build the walls, I won't fall as far or hard.

I understand your need of not getting hurt. But sometimes if you do not feel deeply or give your best to make something work, you wouldn't know it's true worth.

Very true but it's been a lot of hurt in a short amount of time. It's been a bit overwhelming. Most of it could have been avoided and probably wasn't really necessary. I will say that I've tried to take each new pain as a learning experience.