An Addiction

An addiction to loosing weight
An addiction to fasting to do whatever it takes to make sure the number on the scales does not go up
A routine i get into and find it so hard to stop (i haven't eaten in school hours for 3 years now)
A Phobia of weight gain- especially being an elite gymnast
The perfect gymnasts with pretty bodies with absolute perfection
how i ENVY them.
An addiction to be thin
An addiction to counting calories eaten/burnt ALL DAY LONG I CANT ******* THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE
even though my friends say im too ''skinny'' i cant see it, i cant see how ''thin'' i am
because im not. its not what the mirror says....
korbutflip korbutflip
18-21, F
Nov 30, 2012