What If I'm Sick Forever?
I'm very self-loathing by nature. I've never thought highly of myself, and I just view myself as disgusting. On more than just a physical level. I've been throwing up for a year and a half solid now. It has been on and off for about 6 years. And they say that in the long run it just makes you gain weight? Ha... I know I should not be humorous about it... I guess that is just my way of coping. When I first started throwing up, my parents thought it was just over a breakup. And it was, at first. But then I just kept doing it. And my dad looked at me and said. I'm not encouraging throwing up or anything, but it's really workin for ya. ...What? I'm lying to people and I'm sneaking around. I was not even sure if I wanted to get better for a while... Sometimes I still wonder.