Recovered From Ed's

I've recovered my bulimia, anorexia, and abuse exercise. While recovering I've gained 19 pounds. I'm back to where I was in the beginning. I hate myself. I'm going through a depression that is unimaginable. I cannot focus on my school work and all I want to do is cry. I'm 5'2 and weigh 122.5. I'm not looking for people to say, "You're at a healthy weight", or "You're normal". I just can't stand the way I look. I'm doing a healthy lifestyle that I will only eat fruits, vegetables, and fish. I've done that for a week and have lost 5 pounds. I'm just being so impatient and I'm having a hard time right now. I really just need someone to help me get this off my mind. I just have no one because my mom continues to tell me just give it time, but that is just so hard. I can't tell my bestfriend because she tells me I'm perfect because I'm smaller than her. I don't even see I'm smaller. She looks smaller than me. Anyways, I need to get this off my mind. I have to study for a test and cannot. If I could just think about something else to make me happy, then maybe I could get done what I need to do.
skinny4life skinny4life
13-15, F
Jan 13, 2013