Over It

 I have been bulimic for 7 years on and off, on more than off. I have had to drop out of university twice, loose jobs, go broke from buying binge food, loose good friends from lying and isolation, hurt my family, go to two treatment centers, pile up huge hospital bills, and loose myself....why you ask? for my high, my addiction, my false comfort. I am sick of it. Sometimes I think I am over it, but than I just find my days obsessing over food and being disconnected, remembering back to the time before me ed when I was a happy, free spirit. Now I have a thyroid condition, hormone imbalance, and bad immune system because of my choices. It's not worth it, but stopping is no easy task. I am not done fighting, but god when will I get a break?

ohnoladyluck ohnoladyluck
22-25, F
1 Response Feb 16, 2009

I can relate to this so much. I have an eating disorder too. I've had to leave college three times, and owe more in medical bills than I'll make during my lifetime. I moved far away, and I also know what it is like to have a family I've hurt, and know what it's like to not be able to stop or change enough to do much better. I shut friends out, and stay isolated from life itself basically. That last sentence really hit me... cause I ask the same thing! You can always talk to me anytime. I'm here to support you, and listen if you ever need someone to just hear you out.