Here It Is

 


I've always been aware of my body and weight. I've been binging and purging pretty much daily since I was 13 years old, I'm now 19. No one knows, or even has a clue. Not my family, or my friends, not even my boyfriend of 3 years. I have suffered no negative side effects, I think that's the main reason why I can't stop. It has worked at controlling my weight, my teeth are perfect and so it my heart. I'm scared that I wont be able to stop until I do face some consequence, because as of now its been nothing but helpful. I purge 3 times on an average day, after every meal. I keep as little food in as possible. Its gotten to the point that I can not handle feeling full, it makes me sick and drives me crazy until I do get rid of the food. I know its unhealthy but i cant stop.


 

livlove livlove
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 28, 2010

i have the same experience as you until recently, i am startin to feel the consequences. so i reallly hope u can stop before u have the same uncomfortable feeling like me now. <br />
my family and bf of 5 years are not aware of my bulimic act either.

i have the same experience as you until recently, i am startin to feel the consequences. so i reallly hope u can stop before u have the same uncomfortable feeling like me now. <br />
my family and bf of 5 years are not aware of my bulimic act either.

I understand you. Ive been bulimic since I was 9/10 then on off through out my teens. It totals up to 5 years. Im 19 aswell. I do get some side effects, sore stomach etc my teeth are sensitive though my dentist says there perfect. Strange. I purge alot. If u need to talk u can mail me whenever. X