To My God:ambe Maa,shambu And Krishna

Oh god i know i m not good child of urs i never worship nor i chant ur name,my find always filled with false thought and nonsense and weird dreams and wishes; i never think of u anytime i m not a good bhakt of u ,i want u the most but i m stuck in worldly life i m sorry;i know u still love me lot,u fulfill all my wishes and forgives all my sins all time but i go on doing bad,harm and hurt to ur favourate childs,and u i m sorry from my deep heart,that i m ur bad child;i m not person for ur love, but i want ur love most on this earth i think ,i want ur love god from my heart really,i know i never pray to u or think of u never but i want tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.I want to love u ,pray to u,be in u.................but im lazy i sit on comp,or tv,or roam here and there and cannot love u.....i m sorry.........i can't help myself......plz help me god so i can love u ,be yours only forever,faith and trust u and not think u re imaginary,and be yours darling child forever ........plz oh god mercy on me..........make me ur child   plz.................................................

ambe maa i know i m bad never pray or love u or care u or read about u,or fast for u;but i want u be my reason for my breath my ultimate goel of my life ur re my  reason to live plz maa be this make me love u pure love maa,respect u and make me ur child...

shambhu i know i never chant ur name which u like the most,i m sorry i look u in bad way sometimes,and hate ur bhakts cause i want to be one.....oh shambhu plz be my guru,my saviour,my father ,my ultimate destination is to become ur slave plz oh shambhu make me urs true and loving slave and disciple plzzzzzzzzzzzz

krishna i know i m not a true lover of ur, or i never ever read or chanted about u i m sorry plz make me ur lover and be my lover forever ,plz be my love.....that i m always searching plz make me urs forever......................................
oh all my dear darling god show me yours ultimate avataar and roop and darshan change me make me yours forever
that when i give away my last breath u stand in front of me and everywhere and my soul to your kingdom at ur feet forever its my dream,its my only ambition,my only wish from heart,i want u oh god the most.....................plz oh god make me urs forever;forgive my sins and love me................plz.............................
trij trij
18-21
Jul 18, 2010