Trying CelibacyI have a very addictive personality. The internet is a crutch to act out all of my bad habits 90 % of the time I am surfing for inappropriate images of a sexual nature. I guess the main reasons are: bordom, its also a way of procrastinating, self-righteous justification as to what I make myself believe I need at whatever moment. I think I may need to stop using the internet in the privacy of my home; may be a public venue would be more appropriate. I always argue with myself that it would be so inconvenient but I said the same thing prior to selling my car to use public transit. It turns out that that was a total lie that public transit was actually more beneficial in alot of ways. I believe I need to remove this internet from my private dwelling b/c its like I'm a guy trying to get off the bottle and I continously stock up my fridge with beer thinking that that is going to encourage me to stop drinking. Therefore, tonight (I have wasted my whole weekend on useless m/b) I will commit myself by Wednesday to pay my Internet Bill and remove it from my home that's commitment 1.
Commitment 2: Stay Celibate indefinitely. If I relapse after a period so be it a
good period of sexual sobriety is better than a equal period of active someone
haphazard and reckless sexual acting out. However, I will make every effort to stay
sexually sober on a daily basis.
Commitment 3: I will pray every morning
Commitment 4: Join A group Sex Addicts Anonymous Group
Commitment 5: Help people , be of service to people 25 % of my time.
That will be difficult I am very, very self-involved but I will try.
Commitment 6: get up at 6:00 am every morning
and exercise 6 days a week.
Commitment 7: eat fish and vegetables, fruit, oatmeal diet, whole grain, fibre.
no junk food, and no red meat.
Although some may see it as irrelevant I believe that replacing the acting out with healthy habits and
putting controls on my behaviour is a good thing.