I am nearly 40 and I lost the only man I ever truly loved, 25 years ago. I did have other boyfriends and I even married one of them, however it just wasn't the same. I eventually got divorced. I don't have children. I am a born again Christian and I believe God wants me to stay celibate until such time as I should re-marry- if I ever do. I have not had any physical contact whatsoever with men since my ex-husband in May 2005 (and yes I am heterosexual). Sometimes it is easy and sometimes it is not, but overall I am much happier than when I was younger and sexually active for twenty years and just got used and discarded all the time. I have not met anyone I like in recent years. I have a nice church fellowship, fulfilling career and a lovely little home so I am learning to be content with that.