Celibate by circumstance

I am 41 and I lost the only man I ever truly loved in 1988 when my parents forced me to abort our only child. I did have other boyfriends and I even married one of them, however it just wasn't the same. I eventually got divorced. I don't have children and won't (I have had a hysterectomy).  I have not had any physical contact whatsoever with men since my ex-husband in May 2005. Sometimes it is easy and sometimes it is not, but overall I am much happier.  I have a nice church fellowship, fulfilling career, I have travelled, studied and I have a lovely little home so I am learning to be content with that.

MiracleHunter MiracleHunter
36-40, F
2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

Good for you. I am curious about how you know what God wants for you.

I like your question, I've been a Christian for a long time and the best way of explaining it is, you know how if a good friend rings you and because you've been friends for so long they don't even have to say their name but you know who is on the phone because you know the sound of their voice? Well it's like that- not an audible voice of God but more of a knowing that what is best for you is to follow His advice- in the Bible, the occasional dream, the occasional revelation, a sense of His presence... like an old friend, you know His voice- a quiet reassurance that you're doing the right thing. A compass through life. By the way these are my words not out of a book this is really what I experience.

If I could interject, the Bible says that each of us have God's words written on our hearts. We know what is right and what is wrong. In the same way, we can see what direction He wants us to go if you're patient and ask for His guidance. I hope this helps.

Thank you. I was raised christian but never felt it. It always seemed strange to me. I have come to realize that there is no God. So I am very curious how people communicate with a thing that is not there. That is all.

as long as you're happy and content with your life, that's all that matters even if others don't understand that. you do what's best for you :)