Not By Choice Or So I Thought

I never thought of myself as celibate, that was until now. I do not go around declaring myself as such. Still it is self imposed abstinence. For is not my lack of self esteem which hinders me from even remotely considering myself with anyone ever again? Do I not want,what I know I can never have. yet, hold out for this knowing it can never be. Its not just the sexual part I abstain from, it's all intimacy. its sooo lonely.
waitingintimetoo waitingintimetoo
41-45, F
2 Responses Apr 6, 2007

Cyber sex is not the same as being physically touched. Cyber is so impersonal and emotionless. To me it does nothing but make things more sexually frustrating. The connection has to be mental as well as physical and that is just something that cannot be reached with cyber.

have you tried cyber