Is This As Good As It Gets?

So needless to say things with "Mr. You're Broken" didn't work out. And now I find myself all alone again. No surprise there. I am so frustrated with it all. It's not like I want to be by myself. I'm not a hermit by any means. I just want normalcy. I want respect, I want integrity I want a relationship that is real and true and not some cat and mouse game of guess who? these days you never really know what you're gonna get.

Well today I've finally threw up my hands and resigned to the fact that I am going to be alone until the end. I am going to die celibate without ever having experienced love again. It's all too sad because I am a beautiful person with an even more beautiful heart. It's a pity that I have no one to share it with.

I know this sounds like I am depressed and I would be lying I I said that I wasn't a little. I'm more so tired than anything else.

44 years of age and this is as good as it gets. Sad just sad
valadybug valadybug
41-45, F
2 Responses Oct 14, 2012

Don't give up. If this is as good as it gets than it's pretty good. You have your self respect. Keep the faith you never know what the future holds.

Hey be strong, All you have to do is wish it and it will come to you in the nearby future, no thoughts return empty. Distract your mind from love and keep ya head up, do things that make you happy all the time and your lover will come when you are happy and when you least expect it.