Is This As Good As It Gets?So needless to say things with "Mr. You're Broken" didn't work out. And now I find myself all alone again. No surprise there. I am so frustrated with it all. It's not like I want to be by myself. I'm not a hermit by any means. I just want normalcy. I want respect, I want integrity I want a relationship that is real and true and not some cat and mouse game of guess who? these days you never really know what you're gonna get.
Well today I've finally threw up my hands and resigned to the fact that I am going to be alone until the end. I am going to die celibate without ever having experienced love again. It's all too sad because I am a beautiful person with an even more beautiful heart. It's a pity that I have no one to share it with.
I know this sounds like I am depressed and I would be lying I I said that I wasn't a little. I'm more so tired than anything else.
44 years of age and this is as good as it gets. Sad just sad
valadybug 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 Oct 14, 2012