I Am Challenged W Dysthymia
Hi there,
I really would love a cure to this thing they call disthymia. It is crippling my life and yet they say it is a mild depression, but only lasts for 2 years. I feel it will last forever and each day I feel even 'dumer' than before. My interests in hobbies like guitar, painting, socialising have diminished and I find it hard to get up in the mornings. I have almost given up looking for a job as my last job experiences I was basically fired from from not performing up to the standards required. This left me feeling that I could only do cleaning jobs or factory work. My will to work has dwindled. I have gone from hiding it and thinking there is nothing wrong with me to feeling overwhelmed with lack of motivation or desire to do anything. Most days I just watch tv. I long to be like my sisters who are working, travelling and enjoying life. I wish there was a cure. I have had the councilling and take citalopram. It is difficult to describe and hard to explain it to my family. They come home each day and say, have you got a job? or what have you done today? And I cant really tell them anything. I feel this is worse than depression as depression you are suppose to get through. I dont see a way out. I would like there to be experiments done on the brain or somthing as there has to be a reason for this. It is like slowly battling with a disease that there is no cure for - or at least I havent found works for me. I am 29 and have done a lot of things in my life, I have 2 degrees have been overseas. But now have little if no friends and have relied on my family for any kind of life for a while now. I am a good person and think have i done this to myself, but I am sure no one wants to feel this way. I hate the name disthymia its such an odd name. Now the doctors know what I have I just wish there was more they - or I could do. The doctors say to keep busy and even if you dont feel like doing things to force yourself to do them because the less you do the less you want to do. I feel like I am sick of trying and feel like it is going to happen anyway. I am not trying to be negative just want someone to say they relate and maybe there will be a doctor out there that will say ok we'll do some tests on you and see what is happening inside that brain of yours. Why does this happen?
I really would love a cure to this thing they call disthymia. It is crippling my life and yet they say it is a mild depression, but only lasts for 2 years. I feel it will last forever and each day I feel even 'dumer' than before. My interests in hobbies like guitar, painting, socialising have diminished and I find it hard to get up in the mornings. I have almost given up looking for a job as my last job experiences I was basically fired from from not performing up to the standards required. This left me feeling that I could only do cleaning jobs or factory work. My will to work has dwindled. I have gone from hiding it and thinking there is nothing wrong with me to feeling overwhelmed with lack of motivation or desire to do anything. Most days I just watch tv. I long to be like my sisters who are working, travelling and enjoying life. I wish there was a cure. I have had the councilling and take citalopram. It is difficult to describe and hard to explain it to my family. They come home each day and say, have you got a job? or what have you done today? And I cant really tell them anything. I feel this is worse than depression as depression you are suppose to get through. I dont see a way out. I would like there to be experiments done on the brain or somthing as there has to be a reason for this. It is like slowly battling with a disease that there is no cure for - or at least I havent found works for me. I am 29 and have done a lot of things in my life, I have 2 degrees have been overseas. But now have little if no friends and have relied on my family for any kind of life for a while now. I am a good person and think have i done this to myself, but I am sure no one wants to feel this way. I hate the name disthymia its such an odd name. Now the doctors know what I have I just wish there was more they - or I could do. The doctors say to keep busy and even if you dont feel like doing things to force yourself to do them because the less you do the less you want to do. I feel like I am sick of trying and feel like it is going to happen anyway. I am not trying to be negative just want someone to say they relate and maybe there will be a doctor out there that will say ok we'll do some tests on you and see what is happening inside that brain of yours. Why does this happen?
By:
rkindred
Age:
26-30
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