Well...

what does one do...??? I am feeling just completely lost in my life. I have tried the Christian, church thing.... and no matter what I just do not fit in. I feel something is missing in my life, I need something, but I do not even know what it is? I am not satisfied, I feel empty and just lost.

I have lost all my faith in the 'church' Not God, just the church.

My Mother was a practicing Pentecostal Church of God Member- and I was raised under that, but as an adult I decided to go my own way as the church of god church was just not meeting my needs- and I have visited many churches, but then I tried the Catholic church, went through 9 months of OCIA classes and decided to get baptized into the Catholic faith on the Easter Ceremony. it was an awesome thing! epic even! I was so happy and felt so accomplished. and so close to God. but very soon after did I realize the same thing as like with in the church of God churches I had been, it seems to be all about status, how much money one donates each Sunday, who wears the best clothes, and who has the most popular family..... I got left out, slipped through the cracks again... finally I just stop going to any church at all... I do pray and I do believe in God, but the 'church' for me is nothing more than a club membership of people who are important only by status.

I am sick about this, I hate it!

I have this neighbor and he is at church every sunday and he and his live in girlfriend are always telling me how God can change my life and how I need to get 'saved'

I am just desperate..... I don't know who to trust... the church folks are nothing more than clubs with God in their names, and well I guess I just needed to vent this off my chest.

 

ginai ginai
36-40, F
8 Responses Feb 17, 2009

First off I will tell you that I have been pentecostal all my life. I Do Not preach pentecostal but I will talk of God. And just to make sure you know God Is Not Pentecostal. That is somthing made up by man just like all the other denomination's and religion's. Many in my family are pentecostal minister's who dont preach pentecostal. They will preach of God wherever he open's a door to them. So dont get hung up on the denomation thing because you will not find it in God's word.<br />
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My grandfather had a 2nd grade education and was a minister for over 50 year's until God called him home. He started preaching on street corner's and followed God's word and plan's for him. He built church's in three state's. He did not allow anything to happen in God's house that did not follow God's word. Come as you are, Period. No inner circle's, Period. All he expected you to do was respect God's house. He preached God's word and nothing else. Nobody was any better then anybody else in God's eye's or grandad's. But I will also tell you this, if you find a perfect church neither you or I will be allowed in because we are not perfect.<br />
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What I read from you is that you gave your heart to God - but not your eye's. When you went to church where were your eye's looking ? were you looking to focus on God or did you focus on every other thing BUT God ? If you look for the bad in anything, you will find it. You said that you were left out, fell through the crack's. What did you add to the service ? Whad did you offer God when you visited his house, was your mind already looking at man when you walked in instead of looking for God ? God does not want PART of you, he want you to turn it ALL over to him. God will not force his way in, he is waiting on YOU to say God here I am and I lay my all into your hand's for your will be done. No I dont belive you have to go to church to be close to him, but it is where you draw strength and learn more of his word.<br />
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I wont go to a big church, I like small one's where we are more like family. God's Children. If you really want a closer walk with God, then pray about it Non<x>stop until you Know that he has answered you prayer's. Humble youeself before God. Lord lead me to where you want me. Mold me into who you would have me to be. Speak through me to other's, and when you are done PUT YOUR HAND ACROSS MY MOUTH !!! Here I am lord, all of me. YOUR WILL BE DONE IN MY LIFE.<br />
I promise you that he will hear and answer your prayer. But it will not be in your time table but HIS. If you are willing to fully seek him out in your life, you will find more then you ever thought you would. Do yourself a favor, dont look to a denomation, Look to God to lead you. I will be praying for you on this end. God Bless and Keep Looking Up.

Being a Christian is not about "church", its about relationship. Start by rebuilding a relationship with the Holy Spirit through the Word of God. Find a translation that you are able to understand the find a christian friend that you trust and become study/prayer partners. Then find a group that teaches the Word of God. Understand, you are not lost, you are still saved, you just need a relationship.

First off, the bible says to meet together, even more so as the day approaches. If you are looking for perfect people, keep looking. Jesus wouldn't have had to die on a cross if we were perfect. the new testament says that if we draw near to God, He will draw near to us. Our purpose is to glorify God, not ourselves. we are seeking to make Him known, not to get good feelings. The only way to ever feel fulfilled is to surrender your life to Christ, and take up your own faith. Hit me up

First off, the bible says to meet together, even more so as the day approaches. If you are looking for perfect people, keep looking. Jesus wouldn't have had to die on a cross if we were perfect. the new testament says that if we draw near to God, He will draw near to us. Our purpose is to glorify God, not ourselves. we are seeking to make Him known, not to get good feelings. The only way to ever feel fulfilled is to surrender your life to Christ, and take up your own faith. Hit me up

Ginai,<br />
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I live in the bible belt and church is a social club. I go to a church and we meet in a home currently. It is the kind of church that would not tempt those used to a social club to come, because Jesus is real there. There is no set form to the service. We allow God to move and every service is different.<br />
We can start out with people sharing testimonies and go on for 45 min. like that. Another time, God is moving and giving people different words for others and showing visions. My pastor teaches more than preaches and he doesn't have to yell the gospel. <br />
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Ask God to show you where to go to and in the mean time, check online for online churches, listen to sermons that encourage you. I like extremeprophetic. They have an online church and lots of teaching videos.<br />
God will show you. Just be open to listen to Him.<br />
I have a website that teaches you how to hear God's voice. In this day and age we all need to hear good news from Him.<br />
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http://www.freewebs.com/terrytales/

Church shouldn't be like that, Jesus didn't go out of His way to pick popular, wealthy people with status, just the opposite in fact. People used to moan at Him for going about with tax collecters, sinners + prostitutes, and He had a few things to say about His critics! I don't think the early church was like it either. I go to a little local church in England which is fine full of all sorts of people, class, age, status and financial position means nothing there, so I am lucky. I do find listening to Joyce Meyer broadcasts help too. She knows all about the hypocrisy of some churches, some rejected her as a preacher for being a woman, yet it is obvious from her preaching that she is filled with the Spirit of God. One of her favourite sayings is 'Just going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than sitting in a garage doesn't make you a car!'

see i think your problem was the whole status thing going to church shouldn't be about what you wear or money it should be about coming together to worship god.In the bible it says to give one tenth of what you earn to your church so if you can't give more it shouldn't be a problem nd giving isn't about trying to give the most but giving for the right reasons.Also i think you need to deeply search within yourself to see if you believe for yourself because to me it don't seem that way nd church is about the people nd not the building.Also im sure there is a church out there if you need help finding one let me know, and also no offense to the pentecostal church but i don't believe in focusing on the clothes nd i noe wat u mean cuz i went through the same thing. i'm a nazarene and we believe that one should come as they are, i do recommend a nazarene church but i can't gurantee anything unless u really believe i can gurantee u will recieve.

i feel just like you and it sucks big time. i noticed it when i was 15 and never again will i go to church. like you i saw everything for what it really was and it hurt me. its a social gathering and sometimes a parade of the wealthiest. over the years i still pray, just not in a church. living in a bible belt, its hard to explain this to people without offending them. i just move around the topic now. even if this is happening don't loose your faith in god, let this be a leaving curve :)