Trying To Follow God's Plan For MeAs a child, I was forced to go to church every Sunday and resented it. Both the adults and the children at church were clique-y, judgemental, and hurtful. When I became a teenager, I stopped going. In my teens and early twenties, I strayed far away from God. I became involved in anything the Bible warns against. All I got in return was plenty of heartache. I eventually married an emotionally and verbally abusive man. He is extremely angry and cannot explain where his anger comes from. We have a beautiful son together and I just found out we have another baby on the way. This year, his abuse brought me close to emotionally hitting rock bottom. I went back to church, and that is what saved me. I became a born again Christian, and now attend church regularly. My going to church makes my husband even angrier. I know I need to follow God's plan for me. However, I don't know what that is. I have people praying for me, including the pastor and his wife. But things just don't look clear. With a baby on the way, I have to figure out what to do. Pray for me.
JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 7 Responses 2 Aug 11, 2010