The Christian Life Is Not Exempt From Pain

I am proud to say that I'm a Christian, and that Jesus Christ is my savior and that his atoning work on the cross, not anything I have done, is the reason I am saved and secured in heaven. But my story is not an easy one.

The start of my walk began in the summer of 2002, when I began talking to my soon to be wife. I was in the Air Force going through training in Wichita Falls, TX when we actually started dating and on the weekends when I would visit her in Dallas we would go to church on Sunday. It was then that I made a profession of faith, but I later realized that there was no conviction of sin and that my life had not changed. Bear in mind that this was not realized immediately, but rather it was realized 4 years later while I was stationed in Japan. I spent 6 months struggling with it until one day, May 6th 2006 I realized that I was still dead in my sins and I trusted Jesus Christ as my savior for the first time and only time. It was a great time for myself and my family. I was actively serving in church, my son was saved at the age of 5, my wife was also serving. Things were not easy, but I was trying to lead as best I could.

Now fast forward to April 28th, 2010. I have been out of the military less than a year, our families church attendance had been slipping drastically, and times were getting hard both financially and socially. My wife of 8 years at that time told me that she wants a divorce. I was broken. I thought to myself and asked God how this could happen.... I didn't know what to do. My wife moved out a month later and the divorce goes through at the end of October. Still hurt, I try dating to find someone to ease the pain, but that doesn't work. Eventually I realized that the only place I could turn was God.

I had been attending a church off and on, and my kids were not that thrilled with the church I had been attending. Yet it was during that time that I witnessed my daughter trust Christ. Both of my children have trusted Christ, which is the greatest thing a parent can do for their children. Unsure if that church was the one God wanted me to be at, one day I drove by a church that was closer to where I lived and told myself that I would attend it that Sunday. And I did. I can't explain it, but I felt God's Spirit and hand with me the entire time I was in there. It didn't take long to realize it, but once I did I knew that this was where God wanted me to be. It has been a few months now since I first joined Cornerstone Baptist Church, but God has blessed me in ways that I could never have imagined. Both my kids love it there, I have made some amazing friends, and they have been the greatest encouragement to me through all of this.

I am still divorced, still dealing with the aftermath of everything, but you know what? God is still faithful, he is still in control. I'm learning this day by day, but as the Apostle Peter writes - Submit yourself under the mighty hand of God, and he will exhalt you in due time. I trust God and I believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, that is the testimony I want to leave behind.
Army0917 Army0917
31-35, M
10 Responses May 9, 2011

God has a plan for you. You do not know it, but he has already mapped it out for you. Just trust in him.<br />
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You are hurting but the blessings you will recieve from fellowship in your new church family will build you back up again and when God is ready, he will bring someone into your life. But remeber, in HIS time.<br />
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:) xox

I love your testimony and hope that I can come through my divorce as you have with knowing God's wonderful grace!

Thank you, and I pray that God will give you the comfort you need. It has been almost 2 years now since all this started and the road has been more like a roller coaster. I've been through many situations where I had no other option but to turn to Christ and when I finally got things into perspective (which is usually late) I realized that Christ was with me and he did look out for me. I don't view the world through "rose colored" glasses, but I know that God is able, and I can give personal testimony that he does answer prayer.

Thank you for being transparent and sharing your story! So many people go through such pain and need to know that being a Christian doesn't mean an absence of problems and troubles. But we sure have Someone to go through then with us! Keep the faith! Blessings to you, brother! :)

Thank you, blessings to you as well!

EP is a wonderful place for us to share and I am thankful for that.I became a Christian after my wife left and divorced me in 1982.Was single for 14 years afterwards and didn't even bother to go out with anyone.i went through so much pain and couldn't understand why God allowed it.Only about a year afterwards I oneday got a message (I still recall the time of the day and where in the house it happened):"You are a changed man". Just that..<br />
God loves us and He wants us to know that.About 9 months ago I went to a prayer meeting and we discussed God's love for us.I said I was going to think about it for a full year<br />
That was the Wednesday.The next Monday evening I was sitting on the bed thinking about just that for a full hour and a half before going to sleep.Even making up hypotheses about it.<br />
That night I dreamed that I was paging through the Bible with someone in our prayer group.All the time in the dream the one text came up: Rom 5:8.<br />
On waking the next morning I said to my wife that I just had to look it up.<br />
It says: " But God shows and clearly proves His love for us by the fact that while we were sinners,Christ died for us."<br />
I was absolutely speechless!!<br />
He knows our most intimate thoughts.<br />
God bless and be strong,things will change and you will be happy!

Amen. "Submit yourself under the mighty hand of God, and he will exhalt you in due time" and it is amazing how your children entrusted themselves to God. <br />
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I prayed that your wife will repent and come back to the family.

awesome testimony.....God never fails when all else and everyone else fails he will always prove blessed....

Praise the Lord! Your testimony is powerful. You survived a very difficult time of testing. God uses testing to bring us closer to Him. Your children coming to know Christ shows your faithfulness, just like the faithfulness of Job or Joseph, through times of trouble. There will be other times of tests of your faith, but you will endure. You are a wonderful Christian father. I am very happy that God led you to attend that church on that Sunday, and that you have found a home there. God will lead you in the right direction from here. Keep on trusting Him. And yes, when we humble ourselves under the mighty hand of God He exalts us! Stay strong & true for God!

Thank you for your kind words. We always hear that God is faithful but it is not until we experience it for ourselves that we truly know exactly how faithful he is.

I agree with Caramelicious. Your experience is painful, but you have allowed it to turn your life, as well as that of your childrens lives into a living testament to Gods love and everlasting faithfulness. As Caramel said, you have the ability to touch people who are going through similar situations and everytime you give your testimony, you are enabling God to touch their lives as well.<br />
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Many blessings to you and your family!

I am sorry for your loss but grateful that you posted your story. I think that so many people Christian or otherwise think that once you are saved that means that we are saved from pain and suffering which is not true. Even in as much as i wish it was true, ESPECIALLY with the pain and suffering I have been going through in the last four months, I am "struggling" to believe that things will get better as it only seems to be getting worst.