The Christian Life Is Not Exempt From PainI am proud to say that I'm a Christian, and that Jesus Christ is my savior and that his atoning work on the cross, not anything I have done, is the reason I am saved and secured in heaven. But my story is not an easy one.
The start of my walk began in the summer of 2002, when I began talking to my soon to be wife. I was in the Air Force going through training in Wichita Falls, TX when we actually started dating and on the weekends when I would visit her in Dallas we would go to church on Sunday. It was then that I made a profession of faith, but I later realized that there was no conviction of sin and that my life had not changed. Bear in mind that this was not realized immediately, but rather it was realized 4 years later while I was stationed in Japan. I spent 6 months struggling with it until one day, May 6th 2006 I realized that I was still dead in my sins and I trusted Jesus Christ as my savior for the first time and only time. It was a great time for myself and my family. I was actively serving in church, my son was saved at the age of 5, my wife was also serving. Things were not easy, but I was trying to lead as best I could.
Now fast forward to April 28th, 2010. I have been out of the military less than a year, our families church attendance had been slipping drastically, and times were getting hard both financially and socially. My wife of 8 years at that time told me that she wants a divorce. I was broken. I thought to myself and asked God how this could happen.... I didn't know what to do. My wife moved out a month later and the divorce goes through at the end of October. Still hurt, I try dating to find someone to ease the pain, but that doesn't work. Eventually I realized that the only place I could turn was God.
I had been attending a church off and on, and my kids were not that thrilled with the church I had been attending. Yet it was during that time that I witnessed my daughter trust Christ. Both of my children have trusted Christ, which is the greatest thing a parent can do for their children. Unsure if that church was the one God wanted me to be at, one day I drove by a church that was closer to where I lived and told myself that I would attend it that Sunday. And I did. I can't explain it, but I felt God's Spirit and hand with me the entire time I was in there. It didn't take long to realize it, but once I did I knew that this was where God wanted me to be. It has been a few months now since I first joined Cornerstone Baptist Church, but God has blessed me in ways that I could never have imagined. Both my kids love it there, I have made some amazing friends, and they have been the greatest encouragement to me through all of this.
I am still divorced, still dealing with the aftermath of everything, but you know what? God is still faithful, he is still in control. I'm learning this day by day, but as the Apostle Peter writes - Submit yourself under the mighty hand of God, and he will exhalt you in due time. I trust God and I believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, that is the testimony I want to leave behind.