I Have To Break Up With Him To Protect My Sobriety.

I have been clean and sober since Feb 2011.

I started dating someone who parties, drinks and does blow, at the end of June and I moved in with him the beginning of November. Of course, I just thought I'd be 'ok' since I go to parties a lot because I love electronic music.

That was the first mistake, but anyway...

He brings it home sometimes and at first I didn't mind seeing him do a line once in a while after a party but now I'm tired of having to play the tape over and over.
My defenses are growing weak and I am resenting him for it.

I was working at the desk in our bedroom the other day and I looked over and there was an empty baggie and rolled up piece of paper that absolutely terrified me. I no longer feel safe in my own home.

I have to break up with him but I fear the conversation that is going to happen and how he will react.  Mutual friends, blah blah blah...

I know I have to break up in the next few days because I am getting physically ill over this...I'm more stressed now that when my mother died.

He doesn't know yet, but he will soon. I need to talk to him but last night and I think tonight he will be drunk and I want him to be sober for this conversation but we'll see.

anyway, I am venting, just preparing myself to break free from this situation.

any experience/comments are appreciated.

-H
aitchdoubleyou aitchdoubleyou
26-30, F
3 Responses Dec 12, 2012

If you are trying to stay sober, I don't think it is a good idea to be around it

Wow so crazy how insidious this disease is. Do what YOU need to do to take care of YOU. You are so important.

Dear lady ,i don't get your story...sorry ..Anyway I try to understand